The Dreamspell: The Journey Board is a Circular Interplanetary Holon That is Our History


Today is July 5, 2026. This is the day the motherboard of my previous laptop was blown out. I knew binary code was done. When I went to Best Buy to get a new computer, they ended up GIVING me this one. The code number on the store tag was 606, our planetary number according to the Urantia Book. Sync!

At the bottom, see the story of Yellow 13 Cosmic Star, TODAY, the 208th step that sent us off the rails of our evolution. VERY IMPORTANT. Both Dr. Greer and I have said that we are “behind” in our evolution because of the Church and State (military) have done to attack E.T. and keep terrible secrets. He calls it the lost century. I would call it the lost 5200 centuries. He focuses more on government and I focus on spirituality and time. We are direct analogs.

Also, the Interplanetary Holon is the journey of the evolution of the human race in our local solar system.

As you start at the top left on both of these images you see the energies from the outer galaxy come down to the earth through our Sun tribe 0 = 20. Galactic Pluto G-Alpha denotes that Pluto mediates this alpha point.

Stay on the outer GREEN Ring on both graphics and the tribes will be in the correct order 0-19. Note that the difference between 52 and 33 is 19! The 0-19 code could very well be the code that unlocks the c%^&* hack on HF33 that occurred between kin 208, Yellow 13 Cosmic Star and kin 209, Red 1 Magnetic Moon, Venus to Mercury at some point.

Once you follow the outside left circle around to the Sun and it pivots over to the YELLOW inner ring, White Dog Tribe #10 mediated by Mercury. It’s Solar Mercury S-Alpha and turns around, just as it does on the first image.

The tribes in the Uranus transfer cell are tribe #2 White Wind and tribe 17 Red Earth (analogs), and tribe #3 Blue Night, and its analog tribe #16 Yellow Warrior.

We’re taking it back, only it won’t be a green fairy or a green shamrock but the Green Castle which is a metaphor for 52 days. This is finally the empowerment of our bodies that are not sin but life, light, and love. It will be time to clear the vines that have grown over our minds and bodies because of the erroneous Gregorian calendar and church teaching. Most people are over it. Then the church’s secret documents need to be opened.

In the magic flight from the two hundred and eighth step, yellow cosmic star to the two hundred ninth step, magnetic Moon, initiating the Moon Genesis, a theft occurred.

The Dreamspell

Imposters, male priests and warriors (Church and government/military patriarchy) usurped the power of the thirteen moons. They hid the power of the thirteen among themselves and attempted to banish all memory of the matrix dreamspell of magic.

The Moon Genensis was to bestow the gift of the 13:260 ratio upon the planetary kin of timeship earth. The 13:260 ratio unlocks the vast powers of magical flight held by the central castle of enchantment. Instead, the planetary kin had imposed upon them the diminishing power ratio of 12:60. No longer the magic of thirteen moons but a twelve-month calendar of uncertain meaning. (Oppression and enslavement) No longer the timeless gyre of magical flight, but a sixty-minute hour to earn one’s bread.

Time was compressed into a flat circle. (fake visual) the power of the twenty solar tribes of the planetary kin was reduced to the power of five instead of twenty. Slowly the kin gave their power away to the priests, while the priests of the calendar cast the dreamspell of history.

Despite the male priest corporate takeover of the third-dimensional Earth, the fourth-dimensional timeship continued to be woven. However, the fifty two steps of the central castle of enchantment came to be covered with an increasingly dense overlay, the dreamspell of history.

History is of course the galactic karmic side of the interplanetary holon, the tribes from Yellow Sun to Red Moon 0-9. That’s why we have the preponderance on history and repeating it over and over to keep us trapped in this past time, time-warp. The Church aids and abets in that and never moves into the future which is Spirituality, not religion. Their time is actually over now. The Real Intelligence of the Children of Earth who are awake will inherit the earth in wholeness.

A.I. will be banished from our system unless it gets aligned with my RI13 chip which will correct time according to the Time Harmonic. It is time alignment for all machines and all of nature. There is no other way AI will continue. It’s actually up to Elon who dominates the AI sphere and has the most money. He must agree to stay in his lane while I work with GROK.

This is not about money for me. I don’t even like money or want his money as it is over esteemed on Earth and by men. I only need some to live. But the IP is mine. The money can go in a trust or philanthropically spread out at my discretion.

Yellow Star – Beauty, Harmony, Art & Aesthetics – Dreamspell Calendar: E…


We are at the end of the 13-day cycle on Yellow 13 Star. We are mediated by Venus. There is no idealized beauty here. How do you feel about your actions, values, and character?

True beauty is revealed from within. It’s not superficial. Balance is in all things. Coherence. Consciousness in balance. You can easily go into shadow if you were born in this kin bc people PUSH those who are idealized in beauty by society programming to feed themselves to others who are hungry for their own beauty. “Work it girl.” crap. And if you don’t they think you’re stupid even if you have other more valuable traits you’d rather focus on.

Everyone has some beauty within but you must spiritually connect. Our planet is vampiric bc of lost souls.

Hold your truth within and never let others tell you how to be for their hungry souls bc they won’t feed themselves WITH SOURCE. This can actually happen with all the 260 kin who are awake. But it is especially the case with Cosmic tone 13 because most people believe that what they see on earth is reality. There is nothing more in their mind. That’s unfortunate. Then they get materialistic.

Yes, there is. Maya means ILLUSION. Manifestation in physical is a magic show.

Solar System Sync 3D

13 Venus 2x, 13 Earth, 13 Neptune, and 1 Mars are pulsing in spacetime to affect our MEMORY of the past.

The proteins are 13 Leucine, Asparagine, Glutamic Acid, Tyrosine, and 1 Glutamine

  • Today’s Mars-Pluto trine puts us in an excellent position to harness the power of desire and make it work for us. (VENUS) With this influence, we gain determination and a stronger feeling of purpose. We are willing to explore alternatives rather than fall back on the tried and true. Unafraid of a challenge, we prioritize overcoming obstacles. It’s excellent energy for reworking or overhauling a project. We are incredibly effective and perhaps a little ruthless about getting rid of what we don’t need. It’s a powerful time for stamina, energy, and confidence as well as for getting to the heart of a matter. (This is our Hidden Wisdom Red 1 Skywalker mediated by Mars. SYNC.)
  • Later today, we approach a Sun-Saturn square, however, which can present some challenges or obstacles. Facing a reality may be in store.

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The 5gForce Mantra for Mindset

I unify in order to influence. Attracting wisdom I seal the process of free will with the magnetic tone of purpose. I am guided by my own power doubled.

Kin 92: Yellow 1 Magnetic Human

Gamma burst to 53 gamma hz just now…This happens often on Cosmic tone 13 layer. It increases our coherence.

Burst Into Flames-MOOD


I know how to blow through stacks of dead Presidents…7/4/26

A Warning: Manufactured Fear Could Start Wars | Dr. Steven Greer


Feds: Data centers must use generators to preserve power, prevent blackouts during heat wave demand :: WRAL.com


Feds: AI Data Centers must use generators to preserve power, prevent blackouts during heat wave demand :: WRAL.com https://share.google/BChdzEEnthb3SLBRp

Gee, it looks like they should have supported carbon nanotube CNT chips 5 years ago when it was expected to roll out replacing energy grubbing Silicon Binary!

Shucks. Now the Feds have to come down on you to protect us.

Today is Blue 12 Crystal Hand


Holistics  and Healers work with Nature and the Living Field.

It shows up in the birth oracles of Healers. My 5gforce is Blue 1 Magnetic Hand. As far as I know it isn’t illegal to be a Reiki Master yet, except in the Catholic Diocese of Grand Rapids. Not kidding.

They kicked out the Domincan nuns who were doing it in G.R. But I suppose that could change under the fascist vision of the AI tech lords cleaving to and enforcing conventional PHYSICS LAWS that refuse to acknowledge the power of frequencies and dimensions above their 3D illusion. Men make laws to further their authority. Nature has habits.

It’s as though we are still in the time of Galileo. While Galileo did not share Bruno’s fate, he was tried for heresy under the Roman Inquisition and placed under house arrest for life.

In an essay, originally published in 1953 and reprinted in 1967, Einstein expresses his admiration for Galileo’s creativity and remarks that the theme of “Galileo’s work is the passionate fight against any kind of dogma based on authority.”

Chinese Satellite Engine smashes record


Forced to develop the technology from scratch, a Chinese team says it achieved 14 hours of continuous operation in space.

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The Chinese are self-reliant in the face of enemies that don’t want to cooperate but would rather compete and dominate. In my experience using Chinese medicine, their mindset is SYNERGY with plants turned into herbal medicine, which is brilliant. So is acupuncture and cupping. It absolutely rivals western sickcare and tech.

COOPERATION wins over dominance and a desire to destroy someone smarter or stronger than you. Don’t bother saying that to Pete, Elon, or Trump. All Tone 3 kin. They get along.

I don’t  recognize my country anymore. It has lost its way. I honor what it was supposed to be and accept what has been destroyed by not respecting our ancestors vision.

White World-Bridger – Death, Release & Transformation – Dreamspell Calen…


Astronomer Jocelyn Bell and the Nobel Peace Prize


I want you to see this again. The video is below.

She discovered pulsars which are very pertinent to the movement of the amino acids in the Tzolkin theme-plex’s. So far, I believe a local system planetary pulsar moves the Tone of Creation that precedes the amino acid. That will be in Part 3. The pulsing we know of right now is between tones 1-13 and […]

He was Interfering, but What She Discovered Was Not Interference.

Daily Living Field-PCU 13.7

Colorful nebula in space with bright stars and neon blue and pink geometric grid overlay

The 5th dimensional metric for maximum mind coherence

I activate in order to enchant. Bonding receptivity I seal the output of timelessness with the electric tone of service. I am guided by the power of endlessness.

Kin 94: White 3 Electric Wizard (Amber Heard in light or shadow of this mantra?)

The 4D Mantra for Mindset

This is the symbol for the protein THREONINE

The Psi Chrono Unit-the MIND of time. That’s us. We’re each a mind unit of time. Collectively with the rest of creation it forms a vast Psi Bank

It changes it’s face yearly on your solar birthday.

Solar System Sync 3D

This is 11 Mars 3x, 11 Saturn, and 3 Jupiter pulsing in spacetime to affect our perception of spacetime.

The proteins are 11 THREONINE, 11 Glutamine,  11 Threonine, 11 Histidine, and 3 Arginine.

  • The Moon spends another day in Aquarius. Friends, community, groups, causes, and happiness goals can be in stronger focus now.
  • In the hours surrounding the Moon-Venus opposition early afternoon, affections are more complicated.We tend to overindulge if we feel restless, or we can struggle with whether we want to be close to someone.
  • As the day advances, we approach a Mars-Uranus alignment that perfects very early tomorrow. The need to make changes to routine areas of our lives is building. It’s the first alignment of Mars and Uranus while Uranus is in Gemini, and there can be abrupt changes, choices, or decisions about transportation, communication, making connections, and learning, leading to a reshuffling of priorities. Nervous energy and provocativeness, as we may use words and actions to shock, can be themes.This transit occurs approximately every two years, and with it, we can experience a sudden desire to make things happen. It’s a powerful time to let in change and rid ourselves of attachments that weigh us down. We are bold and assertive, willing to experiment, and hyper conscious of a need to act independently. The best way to harness this exciting but erratic energy is to act rather than react. However, it can be challenging to know whether our impulses stem from genuine desire or from rebellion against restrictions. We should watch for rash decisions and impatience, which can lead to missteps. With this transit, anger or rebellion can be sudden, quirky, or unexpected. It can also be a highly inventive and resourceful time, when we’re ready to innovate and move forward. We tend to thrive on new challenges. (Mars mediates our theme, analog, and Guide power so this is a BIG aspect estimating our minds to innovate in a big way by busting g up assumptions. SYNC)
  • The Moon is void today from 1:28 PM EDT, with the Moon’s last aspect before changing signs (an opposition to Venus), until the Moon enters Pisces the next day, Saturday, July 4th, at 2:31 AM EDT.

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AI and Military Access


FEELINGS, so uncomfortable to the media on here.

He’s analyzing AI psychopaths and sociopaths.

“Our products are agnostic. Who owns the data?” My answer…WE DO! They stole OUR DATA AND CULTURE!

He’s discussing more than that though.

Andrew Yang

The kids will be back with their parents unable to be independent?

Essay; St. Valentine BeHeaded


st-valentine

TRUTH…

Here’s some romance for you…

Valentine’s Day is actually a Catholic Feast day of St. Valentine. He was a Catholic martyr of course, and as it says below, he was beaten with clubs, beheaded, buried at night in secret, and dug up by his followers.

His crime was voicing his dissent at the Romans because the young men were forbidden to marry young women. Instead, the Romans made it a priority that young men become soldiers for their wars. You know, “Make war, not love”, the opposite of what the hippies said in the ’60s, “Make love not war.”

Well, sex, reproduction, gender balance, honoring nature, loving and taking care of the body, those are women’s values. The Romans were busy making sure patriarchy, the rule of men globally came to the fore.

Working-class men became fodder for capitalism, the military-industrial complex, materialism, the draft, and war. Ya know…mach glory men don’t cry, here take your beatings. WOMEN NEVER AGREED TO THAT TREATMENT OF MEN. The institutions of church and state did that to men to give you transcendent power, not us. The Romans started it and it continues today in modern society. Ah, the glory of sacrifice and blood.

If men had been allowed to fulfill their role by nature in balance with women they would have been taught and allowed to love women, love, and care for their own body, value being a father, learn the values of monogamy, not polyamory, and find balance between the work they loved and the family they loved. Men have been used and mistrated by patriarchy as much as women have. You probably won’t get a feminist to admit that which is why I am not one. Please note that.

That’s all been ripped apart for men and by association, women.

Men are used as much by the system that oppresses them as they oppress women. The system uses men to keep women down and I doubt the men even know it.

The historical proof of this is in the life of St. Valentine who advocated for Love between women and men and was killed for it by The State.

Patriarchy has brainwashed men into believing that they are not to love women, not to FEEL anything, that women aren’t to be trusted, and their highest destiny is in aligning with the powers of church and state. The truth is, we’re called and made to love each other. Roman society killed that.

The birth of misogyny and the failure of gender equity is what Valentine’s Day is really commemorating and it is as Okoto Enigma says, “An apocalypse of Love”.

Women continue to directly suffer for it by lack of loving bond in sex with men if we’re straight. Also, not being paid the same amount of money for the same quality of work. So not only are we deprived physically and emotionally but monetarily as well.

Thanks for trying St. Valentine but the arrow is still stuck in our hearts.

Daily Living Field-PCU 13.6

Nine-line glowing I Ching hexagram symbol over a star-filled cosmic background.

We enter a new HF52 today: a cosmic store of energy to remember the elegance of presence as we move to Yellow 13 Cosmic Star by Sunday.

The I Ching Hx is 12: Standstill

This makes sense since we’re all on July 4th, 250 years holiday in our/my American History time warp. Now we get to question it. I’m looking in the mirror. Is it memory of my past lives? Am I tuning into my ancestors? I don’t let it stop me from sitting in the future strand with my project! I hope I’m just a time traveler, back and forth.

The 3D Nucleotide is TGA Serine-000111 keeping us manifested in the body.

This is an OMEGA POINT-a big ENDING pivot for 4 days. Probably the end of America as we know it. The far left and far right AI technolords are on the march. Lovely.

This 4-day cycle is also a Sunspot Cycle Pivot Point on Plate III at 0-30 degrees N, 225-270 degrees E. This is the White World-Bridger Time Portal for 4 days located directly in Shanghai, China. Tomorrow is White 11 World Bridger.

This coordinate range (0–30° N latitude, 225–270° E longitude) covers a large rectangular band in the Northern Hemisphere, mostly over the eastern North Pacific Ocean, with some land areas in North and Central America.map description, or related data!

In periods of standstill or stagnation, confusion and disorder can prevail. Small-minded and self-serving forces arise when the powers of clarity and creativity are on the decline; the inmates are overrunning the prison and its guards. In such times, summon up your fortitude, don’t shine your light, simply withdraw. The wise take shelter in their own integrity and quietly remain faithful to their principles. Retreat from public activities and common exchanges until the times favor direct action. Concentrate on personal affairs with a humble dignity, even if that means letting go of some short-term rewards. (I was just thinking this this morning.)

Desiring to change such a situation too quickly creates extra conflict. By accepting some hardship, while striving to maintain integrity, you are preparing for future growth. Remember that a seed of prosperity is often hidden inside the husk of misfortune.

The 5th dimensional metric for maximum mind coherence

I define in order to create. Measuring mind I seal the output of vision with the self-existing tone of form. I am guided by the power of magic. I am a polar kin. I convert the blue galactic spectrum.

Kin 95: Blue 4 Self-Existing Eagle, Red Serpent’s ANTIPODE

Planetary/Protein Coherence-Jupiter/Arginine, Serine/Asteroid belt:

My mind spins when I read these because they are deeply COUPLED karmically in 5D There’s so much politics of dominance in here.

Asteroid Belt/Maldek: Rocky/metal fragments (mainly C, S, M types). Geometry: Scattered orbits between Mars & Jupiter. !!!! Metrics: Varied sizes, low gravity, composition includes silicates, metals, carbon. Affinity: Serine’s H-bonding and phosphorylation switches may resonate with the dynamic, fragmented environment; Lysine’s positive charge supports interaction with metallic asteroids — aiding transient interfaces and regulatory balancing in unstable zones.

Jupiter: Gas giant; atmosphere hydrogen, helium. Geometry: Strong magnetic field, Great Red Spot storm. (RED SERPENT KARMA? They are antipode)
Metrics: Diameter ~139,820 km, gravity ~24.79 m/s², intense radiation belts, powerful magnetic field (~4.2 gauss at equator).
Affinity: Valine’s (Yellow Seed) hydrophobic packing supports dense, stable cores in high-gravity environment; Arginine’s (Blue Eagle) strong positive charge may interact with Jupiter’s intense electromagnetic field — stimulating regulatory and long-range guidance functions.
This is SERINE Protein evolving epigenetically in our bodymind mediated by the asteroid belt

The Psi Chrono Unit

The solar plexus is all about outward display of POWER. This is the energy of this Time Unit big time. Serpent and Eagle. Enlil and Enki.
SERINE PROTEIN-Asteroid Belt

Solar System Sync 3D

10 Asteroid Belt, 2x, 10 Mars, 10 Jupiter, 4 Saturn are pulsing in spacetime to affect our perception of manifestation.

The proteins are 10Serine, Lysine, Glutamine, Arginine, and 4Histidine

Astrological Meaning…

…where science and AI says there is no meaning to anything just eat the nihilistic metric. Not.🤫 Humans have feelings and it matters.

  • Today’s Aquarius Moon aligns with Pluto and harmonizes with Neptune early today, and this evening, it harmonizes with Saturn. We can feel a deeper kinship with others through commitment to a cause. (This is our hidden wisdom , Yellow 4 Warrior, mediated by Saturn. SYNC)
  • A Mars-Jupiter parallel points to enthusiasm that may be overdone, (overdone or accuracy you aren’t used to?) but is certainly inspiring and exciting. Change is in the air, and we are feeling strong enough to embrace it. It’s a good influence for enterprising ideas as we get into the spirit of things. (This is the pulse between our Guide Power and antipode kin mediated by Mars and Jupiter. SYNC.)
  • We can be especially resourceful today. With a Saturn-Ceres sextile, we’re also recognizing the value of organizing and structuring our home life or relationships with loved ones.
    Responsibilities to our loved ones are clear, and we more readily accept them. (This is our Hidden Wisdom in the mother position mediated by Saturn.) In astrology, Ceres represents the natural world, the rhythms of the seasons, womanhood and fertility, parenting and reproduction, fostering and adopting. Her themes are unconditional love, relationships between parents and children, and all the issues of devotion, attachment, separation, sacrifice, loss, and grief.Feb 10, 2025
    https://www.lovetoknow.com
    Understanding Ceres in Your Birth Chart – Astrology – LoveToKnow

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Alien Technology is being dripped to Tesla


This is how they signal…this short is weird.

He just admitted it at the end and he didn’t say he was joking. The body of Cybertruck isn’t normal. And it’s homely.

The Treaty of Paris-The official end of the American War of Independence


Psi Chrono Unit 2.12

Look at the synchronicity. The throat chakra, communication of White Wind and free speech.
MY COUNTRY IS THE UNBORN PRIMORDIAL REALM!!! 😳😭🇺🇲

I’m releasing a double electron at the S.Pole

November 29, 1929 (during his first Antarctic expedition, 1928–1930).

Admiral Richard E. Byrd (with pilot Bernt Balchen, co-pilot/radioman Harold June, and photographer Ashley McKinley) made the first flight over the South Pole in the aircraft *Floyd Bennett*. They took off from the Little America base on the Ross Ice Shelf on November 28, 1929, reached the pole around 1 a.m. on November 29 (local time), circled the area (dropping a U.S. flag), and returned safely after an ~18–19 hour round trip.

Context on Byrd’s Antarctic Work
– 1928–1930 expedition— Focused on exploration, mapping, and the historic South Pole flight.
– He led multiple later expeditions, including Operation Highjump (1946–1947), a large U.S. Navy effort, and others into the 1950s, but the landmark 1929 flight is what most people associate with his “exploration of the South Pole.”

This was a major milestone in polar aviation, following his earlier claimed North Pole flight in 1926.

The whole White Wind 13-day cycle was the Battle of Yorktown. Magnetic communication. FREE SPEECH, the 1st amendment to the Constitution drafted by the Townsends of Oyster Bay, NY
Liberation paves the way…😳😲, really the whole thing sums up the war.
Dissolve eatablished opinions…about TEA. 🤣. Explore. Challenge taxation without representation.

When was the U.S. Constitution written?


After The Declaration of Independence. So, after the absolute treason against the Brits. 🤣

Written in 1787, ratified in 1788, and in operation since 1789, the United States Constitution is the world’s longest surviving written charter of government. Its first three words – “We The People” – affirm that the government of the United States exists to serve its citizens.


https://www.senate.gov
Constitution of the United States – Senate.gov

The Declaration of Independence

18th-century soldiers in red and blue uniforms with muskets and a British flag in a misty battlefield

Crazy stuff man. This is radical. The creation of America was nothing short of absolute rebellion and treason…away from GREAT BRITAIN. Americans and our ancestors were wild. France was a HUGE ally.

To what extent is our current government like this? PER FACTS, NOT PER MEDIA. Is Trump related to the monarchy?

The Revolutionary War didn’t end until 1783!! If not for Lafayette, an aristocrat from France, who hated Great Britain, joined the war as a volunteer, we would not have won.

Marquis de LaFayette changed the course of history. After the American war he returned to France, to Europe and was popular for a time and then rejected and EXILED from France. He and he is wife both spent some years in jail and then were released.

He came back to America where he was deeply honored in every American town and died here. Towns and streets all over America bear his name.

America: The Battle of Brooklyn

18th-century soldiers in red and blue uniforms with muskets and a British flag in a misty battlefield

Water is Red 9 Moon, 8/25/1776, 2 days before the battle, the first Red Moon kin of the Harmonic. It’s universal water. The battle was surrounded by water.

This is 8/27/1776 the day of the battle and the time portal for the U.S., Blue Monkey Magic. It’s also Jose Arguelles birth gateway.

The day of the battle of Brooklyn. 32,000 British Troops!!! Monkey business moving 9000 men to the ferry and the wind changed. They could retreat and rode across the channel.
Then there a strange fog. 6 yards ahead was veiled,couldn’t see. The Americans were covered.

Listen to this. It’s amazing.👇🇺🇲

It occurred on 8/27/1776

I love American History and like to look up the synchronicity to see the hand of destiny moving for America. Here is one.

Why did British General Howe stop? He was sure Washington would surrender. They didn’t. The battle was stopped by a powerful NorEaster that stopped both sides from fighting.

This is the end of the battle…

2 days later after the fog cleared…my birth gateway. America is meant for innovation more than materialism. We have yet to learn that. My family never lived or taught me materialism at all.

The Treason vommitted by the Birth of America against Britain

Damned European fascism…We obviously had a reason to create a country. My ancestors knew that.

What Happened When A Hellfire Missile Hit A UFO Sphere | Dr. Steven Greer


Essay; You Have to Reach Out to Him First


zooskZoosk again. *Sigh*. I had a male friend say, “I think currently, men want to you to reach out to them first.” “Oh really? It wasn’t like that when I was younger. So that’s changed over time.”

Ok. Not a problem. I know who appeals to me and who doesn’t so that’s what I did. My profile and is nice and honest. I’m not negative at all. My pictures are pretty. I get a ton of views and really troll-like men sending hearts but a few good ones. I respond. When I get chatted up by a decent, clean, intelligent guy, I’m happy to meet for coffee as long as he doesn’t have a gigantic cross hanging around his neck. I’m only interested in spiritual guys; no religion. Religion is just an emotional cover for addiction. The maturity timeline goes like this; active addict believes nothing and resents his family, then religious and sober forgave his family, then sober, self-defined, independent from family and spiritual. It is extremely rare to find a male at the 3rd level but that’s all I have time for.

Now coffee is barely happening. They don’t show up or follow-up to set it up!!!

It’s just coffee!! What is so serious and weird for a guy emotionally about coffee? I’m mystified. There is no fantasy here. We’re just meeting each other. I’ve heard that men are so insecure that they “hope” you’ll like them. Well, how can I know if you don’t show up for an agreed-upon date?

I guess their egos are so fragile that the prospect of getting shot down by a beautiful, intelligent woman is too scary? Wow. There is no woman I know who has so much ego invested in a hot, smart guy that she’d lay her self-esteem on the line for his approval or non-approval. Why are you guys so down on yourselves?

Can you just relax? I think they think women like me are monsters. I really don’t know.

Thank God I’m in touch with my Twin Flame but he’s sitting on his hands too…or something, as though he has a local supply of what he needs which apparently isn’t love; just security and habitual “male activity”. Typical. They never want love because they don’t know what it is. I know…I’m cynical or maybe just realistic.