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Essay: There’s No One Left. I’m Alone. This was written in 2018
It has finally happened after twenty years. I live alone in my house, no men, no noise, no demands for food or rides, this or that, “Mom can you help me!” “C’ mon, let’s go to the store”.
My son’s dad died three years ago in 2015…the last time I saw him was Christmas Day. Five days later, he was gone. I barely eeked out a smile as I said goodbye. He had been pretty emotionally abusive to me, frustrated his whole life, not knowing he was high-functioning autistic savant until three months beforehand. My efforts at solace could not change his brain, but he was a music legend on the pile of my torn apart heart. In addition, my son did not see his father respect me; the fruits of patriarchy.
Three months later my fiance died. I had fifteen minutes notice. We loved each other and did everything for each other. It was not to be. He had not taken care of his body and it caught up with him.
Now four days ago, my nineteen-year-old son went out the door with his backpack and no notice to start his hero’s adventure quest which is his birthright. Good for him but he could have warned me! It reminded me of the sudden death of my fiance.
On his way out, of course, he was mad at me and said I was so selfish. I suppose because I take care of myself and being a female, that is unacceptable and taboo. I wonder if he thought of the effect of his words on me, skipping them like stones across the water? Doubtful at his age. I’ve been called selfish alot because I’m independent and have my own life that I share with a few people who don’t ask me to stop loving physics and time science just because I’m a girl.
But the men walk out quickly and don’t return I’ve learned, to the other side of this world…or town. It doesn’t matter. They’re not with me.
It is so peaceful in this house without a raucous male. Part of me has waited twenty years to take my body back from my partners and my son, and before that, a line of men, but not a long line.
Now I get an adventure quest; a fresh start, the second half of my life, a thriving business, a home, free to do whatever I want and a body with no risk of pregnancy. I haven’t given it all away.
It’s like this secret I have as a fifty-five -year-old who no one would suspect and assumes in our youth worshipping culture, female sacrificing altars around every corner, that I’m all washed up. “Hasn’t that woman been laid flat yet? Well, why not?” (My mother keeps literally asking that as though she’s waiting for me to fall) I SHOULD fall or it doesn’t look good?
“She’s Selfish!” they cry. With a capital “S” not a small “s”. There is the low self and the Higher Self. No. I just don’t believe in aging and atrophy. I don’t follow social programming.
Truth is, I am my own best friend and for the first time in my life, I’m taking care of my body for me and no one else. More and more women are doing it. I’m not alone. We still have work to do and adventure quests to commence. Ridiculous isn’t it.
I feign an attitude and a bird ready to flip until my dying day…because I said so.
Essay: False Equivalencies of Gender
I wrote this in 2017 when I was still a Dem and pre-covid. Today is July 16, 2026 and I generally still agree but I wnat nothing to do with politics anymore, have lost much of my faith in people after watching them march to the mRNA vaccine with their right arm in the air, and don’t align with any party. Just sayin’. I DID NOT get the vaxx, was run off of most social media, and as a holistic, absolutely knew the human immune system wins the game. 😉🥳
My intuition came on strong today regarding a remedy for what is perceived now in the media as immense gender disparity, women as the victims, and a desire for justice.
Matriarchy and Patriarchy, operating our human societies for the last 10,000 years have set up false equivalencies of power. False equivalence is a logical fallacy in which two completely opposing arguments appear to be logically equivalent when in fact they are not. This fallacy is categorized as a fallacy of inconsistency.
The actual behaviors on the part of men and women, in terms of physical, sexual behavior is entirely natural. What is not natural now is our civilization. It’s artificial due to the effect of silicon binary computer programming on our brains. Everything is dualistic now.
Staring at our screens and not talking or touching one another is indicative of that! Our healthcare system is indicative of that also. Nothing about our body awareness, perception, and flow are in accord with the natural cycles and rhythms of nature.
It’s affected our sexual behavior as women and men, of course, as the first line of physical behavior since that is mainly what we are; sexual animals. Our civilization has taught us, via State and Church to not be sexual animals anymore, or follow nature, and that it should all be controlled and repressed. It’s error to teach that. Sexual behavior and all of nature is actually a beautiful thing; not to be avoided but to be enjoyed with love!
The repression of beauty and enjoyment is a profit boon for the porn industry; bottom line. And why does pornography need to be only seen as violent, incestuous, or pedophilia? Some of it is violent, much of it is not, unless you view that lack of bonding violent. Some might.
We see events now, all over the world really, trying to bring a measure of SHARED power not based on gender. We see it in Saudi Arabia, Europe, Africa, and the U.S. but we keep banging the drum of gender as a procrastination really, mostly on the part of women, to, at last, release matriarchal dominance (the Democrats) that subjugated and insulted men in the past while we abused our power over them.
We need to finally acknowledge that men can take care of themselves as grown-ups and need to rectify their adolescent behaviors (the Pubs). We can each take care of ourselves, and neither women or men need to throw themselves on the sacrificial pyre of STATE or CHURCH forcing its values onto the family.
Those two institutions use gender war to take both of our power. Let’s support one another, be kind and loving to one another and acknowledge our unique power as individuals. Our strength is in each other, not in institutions, tech, political parties, and a money system that supports militarism and gender disparity at the expense of each other.
Molecules of Emotion: Health-The Network of Mind IN the Cells
Chapter 9 of “The Molecules of Emotion” gets juicy. Dr. Pert says, on page 185
“The three classically separated areas of neuroscience, endocrinology, and immunology with their various organs-the brain; the glands; and the spleen, bone marrow, and lymph nodes are actually joined to each other in a multidirectional network of communication linked by information carriers known as neuropeptides.
“…it might make more sense to emphasize the perspective of psychology rather than of neuroscience, for the term psycho clearly conveys the study of mind, which encompasses but also goes beyond the study of the brain. I like to speculate that what the mind is, is the flow of information as it moves among the cells, organs, and systems of the body…the mind as we experience it is immaterial, yet it has physical substrate, which is both the body and the brain.”
“The mind, then, is that which holds the network together, often acting below our consciousness, linking and coordinating the major systems and their organs and cells in an intelligently orchestrated symphony of life. This view of the organism as an information network departs radically from the old Newtonian, mechanistic view where we saw the body in terms of energy and matter. But there is intelligence running things. Intelligence in the form of information running all the systems and creating behavior.”
Creating behavior? Now there is where I part ways with her. My son, who is studying psychology believes our behavior is determined by chemicals in the brain. That makes him, and those who agree with him, materialists. Many people believe our behavior is pre-determined or determined, that there is no real choice or free-will. Frankly, this seems to be the central debate as we are squarely in the high-tech age, moving from Newtonian materialism to Einstein quantum states where something we see only exists because we see it collectively. It doesn’t exist in and of itself, by itself.
What do your intuition and experience tell you here? How has your life unfolded? My life has taught me that I create my reality and my body condition by the habitual feeling, beliefs, and thoughts that I run. So I check myself every day. It’s called mindfulness. While I am part of an agreed-upon collective mind field as I look out my office window at the snow-covered roofs, my individual perception, interpretation, feeling, and thought processes are chosen by me. Am I kidding myself? Am I just a puppet on a string? Or are we truly at choice?
It makes no sense to believe we’re puppets. Otherwise, our lives would all be the same and unfold in a gentrified fashion and have no meaning or differentiation. There is an observation! Many people’s live ARE gentrified because they are not acting on their power to choose; free will. It is possible to abrogate your rights in the universe and then your mind goes into default mode, programmed by your family, Facebook, and CNN and you are part of the herd mentality. There are a thousand ways to free yourself from that and uplift your mind. Follow your intuition.
While it’s true that in my personal life, death/change has been a constant around me, it’s not something I chose to happen; I’ve witnessed it happening to others first hand. The universe allowed it to occur around me for a reason or maybe I did. However, my individual choices are indeed the reason I find myself in my current situation. It’s all good.
My mind is run by my intuition 24/7 and always has been, for as long as I can remember. Personally, I feel like I live in a kaleidoscope. When others see static sameness, I see and feel minute details of an ever-changing landscape of colors, vibes, temperatures, shapes, dimensions, and souls coming and going. Even sitting still, I feel in my body that life around me on earth is a dance of changes in light and shadow and I interpret them as quickly as I can and respond.
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Essay:The Erroneous Line Drawn Between Science and Spirituality
Remember this Philosophy Tree I posted a few posts ago? I love this thing. So let’s go back to the axiom at the top upon which all institutions of higher learning, all over the world, base their system of learning and degree-granting powers; Philosophy.
All subjects are philosophical. One of the great tenets of philosophy, established by the Greeks, is debate and discussion. It’s pretty anti-social to say, “I’m right, it’s been proven, no more discussion. Go sit down and be quiet.”
As objective as a physical scientist attempts to be with their scientific method, coming under the heading “Philosophy of Science”, they are subjective humans and can never be fully free from bias.
It’s proven by their emotional outburst of anger if someone wants to have a discussion with them after they make absolute statements and need everyone to agree with them because the philosophy of science is “the truth”.
“Playing well with others” learned in kindergarten is a good character attribute to have. I’m not saying I’m an expert at it being a high IQ woman, but I always start out being civil and it devolves from there adter I’m dogpiled by bottom feeders.
Gender bias is rampant in any STEM (Science, technology, engineering, and math) discussion where a woman needs to have a say.
It’s amazingly irrational, sort of proving my point above. I think it’s a good idea to qualify your work and be tolerant of dissent or a different perspective, otherwise, no matter how right you are, you lack integrity because you don’t care how you emotionally affect others.
So, look at that empty white space under “Philosophy of Religion” which comes from Ontology and Metaphysics”? Go over to the left and the Philosophy of Science branch is loaded. That is interesting, isn’t it?
Hardcore Newtonian Materialists would say, “That’s because we have hard evidence.” Yes, in your pants, which we women are happy for! But not when we have to earn money in the public workplace and you STILL have hard evidence.
I would say it’s because we live in a patriarchal society controlled by money and power in the hands of men in academic institutions who routinely denigrate the scientific method of females in psychology and religion which is spirituality. They are sciences too!
Now, look at “Philosophy of Mind”. It sort of waves the right hand over to “Philosophy of Psychology” saying, “Well, there’s this!” with a glass of wine in the left hand having a party with “Philosophy of Religion”. That’s sort of where we find ourselves in the year 2017.
We don’t have any boxes under Philosophy of Mind and Philosophy of Religion because we don’t have any money to do the experiments. There has been plenty of documentation and proof verifying that the study of Mind,
Religion (Theology), Psychology and Parapsychology are worthwhile endeavors, but you can’t see the material manifestation of feelings, thoughts, dreams, and intuitions as easily as you can see a ball rolling down a hill for a physics experiment.
Well, at the very least, our field is much more complicated. What can possibly be more complicated than studying how Mind manifests as feelings and physical being?
What is really changing now is proof from the quantum physicists that thoughts, feelings, and intuitions DO manifest in the body, literally, and cause illness or wellness, depending on how you align them. Everyone intuitively knows this. We don’t feel we need a double-blind study particularly, just some common sense.
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Essay: Activating the 12 Chakra System
I work with the immaterial energy centers of the body all the time in my office while I’m doing Reiki. My patients can feel it because I’m working with Qi or Ki. In addition, my pendulum can pick up the direction of their spin very easily but I don’t use it much anymore. My hands can feel it. I only use it when a patient needs to see how their energy is affecting something they can see; the pendulum.
Chakra means “wheel”. Most people are used to working with the 7 chakras, but in this time of increased spiritual growth and ascension, it is important to work with the 12 chakras. That said, only do it when you’re ready, especially if you’re just now becoming aware of your qi and the chakras.
12-Stellar Gateway chakra-Accessed in deep meditation or even in the dream state at night when you’re out of the body yet still tethered.
11-Soul Star-The Soul Star Chakra is located about six inches above the crown chakra (top of the head) & is the bridge from the human to the spiritual realms. …
10-Causal-The causal body is the layer of energy beyond the higher mental body and is linked to the throat chakra and the causal chakra at the back of the head. This is the doorway to higher consciousness and links the personality to the collective consciousness of the planet.
9-Crown Chakra-This is where we learn, on a spiritual level, to love unconditionally, allow compassion for our fellow soul’s who we realize are on their own path, just like us. It’s also where we open up to lessons directly given from spirit guides and what opens wider when we seek an adventure.
8-Third eye chakra or clairvoyant seeing. This one spins constantly for me as I live by my intuition first and then I run it through the filter of my rational mind. It’s psychic vision or a sense of what you are creating going forward for yourself.
7-Throat chakra-how you express yourself. Whether speaking, writing, playing, crafting, painting…you are speaking in your voice that is unique to you. For people that feel they must hold their tongue or were taught to guard their cards closely, this will be very low functioning. There is a good middle ground here.
6-Heart Chakra-who and what you love lives here.
5-Solar Plexus-Your power chakra. How you express your strength, what you’re good at in the world or not who you are to the outside world, confidence level.
4-Naval chakra. This is the Dan Tien and is the center of your body. Your birth qi is seeded here by your mother, who also formed your subconscious mind. This is very personal and sometimes we need to talk deeply about this.
3-Sacral chakra-personal feelings. Relates to all reproductive and digestive issues.
2-Root chakra-Your grounding, sense of connection and security in the body related to sex, reproduction, money, ability to walk, willingness to walk, desire to run, relaxation and movement of the feet, hip, knee, ankle, and feet will be directly affected by your attitudes, values, feelings and actions with regard to all of these issues. Security, territory, property, what propels you to stay in the body and keep interacting on Earth in this unique manner. The ten chakras above it are what energize you with “your agenda”. Everyone is walking the Earth for different reasons. The soles of your feet bring in the energy directly from the Earth like a two-pronged plug plugged into an electrical outlet. Be sure you’re plugged into the Earth.
1-Earth Star. The condition of your earth star will tell a practitioner whether you’re plugged in the body or compromised.
Chakra healing is now a widely known method of energy healing, and although most people are familiar with the 7 chakra system, there are in fact many chakras. The higher ones are transpersonal.
It’s important to work with your Reiki practitioner closely to activate and balance both front aspect and rear aspect chakras.
Peace!
Prose; Oblivion
Digital Artist Sandra Bauser
Time fades into oblivion
One memory, one vision of you and I feel whole again.
I remember your voice, your smell, the feel of you next to me.
In time, it was so long ago, yet to my mind, it was yesterday.
My love for you is as natural as my heartbeat.
Prose; Skin
The shell of a turtle, a carapace, guards your continuance of electric water, straight to your brain, pulls your vibration down in by degrees.
Your skin like a husk full of ridges on corn smells sweet,
hard to pull off at the bottom, tassles so soft on my face, the smell of earth.
Your arm was warm and pleasant as the first tomato of summer in my hungry hand.
Let me bite into that luscious fruit, so sweet and tangy
or a mango stream of juice down my chin.
I’m distracted, clement smells from your back
Why are so sweet yet so smart and severe?
No end to touch makes my breathing peaceful.
I feel happy…oh god I’m doomed.
Indeed, it only lasted one day and you ripped your skin from me again.
At least you can’t take the memory from me.
Words can never erase actions like skin can never cover feelings.
Essay; No Thank You #2- I’d Rather Have This. ~ Response to Dina Leygerman, 2017 The Women’s Movement
I have a boundary to set with the commentators on #1 of this post. I am an extremely open-minded person that listens to how people feel for a living. I’ve been doing it for twenty years. You are welcome to comment, of course, on the ideas I put forward. But I will cut you off if you simply slam and criticize in anger and negativity in the comments section. I ask that you make constructive criticism, helpful comments regarding a perspective I may not have seen. You have to be civil to me. I don’t allow myself to be mistreated by anyone, for any reason.
I had 4000+ views on my response to Dina since I posted it 6 days ago and many agreed with me and a few did not. I have observed that between WordPress and Facebook and the women I talk to directly, there is an emotional savior complex among women, “we’re in this together”, “don’t deviate” attitude. It’s a very patriarchal attitude and very “churchy” and sacrificial. That is not the kind of movement I will join because in the end it’s controlling and selfish. Women need to take care of themselves and ask for what they want and need and then ask others to join them. It’s empowerment and in my life, it’s based on Spirituality. Everyone is different and no preaching is necessary.
#1 HEALTH OF OUR BODIES AND MINDS and learning how to ask for what we need with regard to it.
I would like women’s health care and women’s right to control our bodies to be a focus. To a great degree, we can do much of this for ourselves. I live in my body 24/7 and it belongs to me. Especially in holistic medicine, my health is in my hands. But for some women, it’s not as simple. For now, we need both allopathic and holistic health care.
I’ve also seen many, many comments that not all women from all opinions and persuasions are being welcomed into the movement; in particular, women who do not support abortion and women who prefer peace, not a closed fist. I personally know two women who voted for Trump just on that issue alone. If feminists are discussing women’s bodies and feelings about reproduction, we need to just LISTEN to the feelings and ideas from all corners. It does not have to be in our platform or in our legislative agenda per se, but we owe it to all women to listen to their point of view if it’s presented in a civil manner.
Since I’m on the issue of civil manner, a women’s movement will in no way be taken seriously by Congress or anyone intelligent who could potentially fund the movement unless we stop the drama, the anger, the religious fanaticism, and the intolerance for those that don’t agree with us.
#2-Passage of the Equal Rights Amendment to the Constitution of the U.S.
- Section 1. Equality of rights under the law shall not be denied or abridged by the United States or by any State on account of sex.
- Section 2. The Congress shall have the power to enforce, by appropriate legislation, the provisions of this article.
- Section 3. This amendment shall take effect two years after the date of ratification.
That’s the whole thing and it still hasn’t been passed. I just saw this online and I couldn’t believe it.
There is already an Equal Pay Act of 1963 signed by JFK. Women need to read it, know the law and make sure it’s enforced in any job you take. You can find it online. Be brave!
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I’m stating this and anyone else who feels this way can wrap their mind and heart around it. Essentially, these are mental mantras that you repeat to yourself over and over, or in a small group to set positive energy. These are not demands or expectations. This is a list of what I want and maybe some other women will as well.
- I want to be a happy woman and for everyone else to be happy as well
- I want to be a thriving woman and for everyone else to thrive as well
- I want to advocate for myself in confidence
- I want to step up to who I really am and be honest
- I want to hear happy-hearted women lead the movement the loudest
- I want to know that everything is working out for each of us as individuals
- I want to live interdependently, not co-dependently or addicted as a woman
- I want to live safely in the world as a woman
- I want to know that no matter how many times attempted victimization is foisted on me, I do not have to accept the feeling of being a victim or the label of being a victim. I want to know that I have the right to be here, to be in my body, and to choose my life as I see fit.
- I want to know that Source energy, female and male, uphold me in my empowerment
- I want affordable healthcare for my female body.
- I want access to licensed, professional, holistic medicine for my female body and my children.
- I want my children to live safely in the world, playful and eager
- I want more people on Earth to feel better
- I want more stability and security as a woman
- I want to be safe and secure in my home as a woman
- I want the household chores split equally in my home
- I want sex to be discussed openly and our sexual needs met equally in my home
- I demand to be treated as an equal in my home with a male mate
- I want to be equal among humanity as a woman
- I accept the different sexual expressions and orientations of other women
- I do not support violence as a woman, from me, to me or my children
- I do not support the societal over-objectification of women’s looks for profit
- I want to thrive as a woman
- I want to work in a robust economy as a woman
- I want more of my own money and control of it as a woman
- I want equal access to bank loans as a woman
- I want to be listened to and respected as much as men as an intelligent woman
- I demand credit for my work and my ideas in the workplace as a woman
- I want to have more fun as a woman
- I want to feel at ease in my community as a woman
- I want to see people in affinity with me safely, around the world, as a woman
- I want to appreciate everyone’s point of view even if we’re not in agreement, as a woman
- I want to feel balance in diversity as a woman
- In this movement, in my female circles, I want me or my women friends to speak first and lead before a male. This is OUR TIME to come forward on behalf of all women in the world who want to be happy, healthy, and empowered to have a good life. We do it in the way only women can.
Essay; No Thank You. My Response to ~ Dina Leygerman, 2017 attitude about the Women’s March
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Synchronicity is the Source of Consciousness 