Is the Optimal Set of Protein Amino Acids Purposed by Mind?


This is a great foundational paper to explain the ancient existence of the Tzolkin.

The Mayan count of days, count of kin, and the count of amino acids IS the universal software program of intelligent design from galactic center or Hunab Ku in Maya or God as the Christians say.

There is Mind all right, universal patterns that are exponential and exact, full of destiny and free will and a type of theocracy that puts earths cycles and the evolution of humans at the center of a multidimensional drama of cosmic proportions.

Our ancestry is from the galaxy, the stars, the planets and at the Center of it is an Eternal Son who goes by many names but is known Universe wide as our best friend, loyal, and pure of heart. He belongs to no, one galaxy, planet, species, or people but an intelligent Grand Universe.

By Fazale Rana – October 9, 2019 As a graduate student and a postdoc, I spent countless hours in the lab doing research. Part of my work involved performing biochemical assays—laboratory procedures designed to measure the activities of biomolecules and biochemical systems. To get our assays to work properly, we had to carefully design and […]

Is the Optimal Set of Protein Amino Acids Purposed by a Mind?

Is the Optimal Set of Protein Amino Acids Purposed by a Mind?


This is a great foundational paper to explain the ancient existance of the Tzolkin. The Mayan count of days, count of kin, and the count of amino acids IS the universal software program of intelligent design from galactic center or hunab ku or God as the Christians say.

There is Mind all right, universal patterns that are exponential and exact, full of destiny and free will and a type of theocracy that puts earths cycles and the evolution of humans at the center of a multidimensional drama of cosmic proportions. Our ancestry is from the galaxy, the stars, the planets and at the Center of it is an Eternal Son who goes by many names but is known Universe wide as our best friend, loyal, and pure of heart. He belongs to no, one galaxy, planet, species, or people but an intelligent Grand Universe.

By Fazale Rana – October 9, 2019 As a graduate student and a postdoc, I spent countless hours in the lab doing research. Part of my work involved performing biochemical assays—laboratory procedures designed to measure the activities of biomolecules and biochemical systems. To get our assays to work properly, we had to carefully design and […]

Is the Optimal Set of Protein Amino Acids Purposed by a Mind?

Anyone for a Swim?…or a Cry?


I love this chart. It puts the Tzolkin archetypes into Earth language.
Hydrophobic means the molecules, and some of yours, have a water phobia. They don’t like the water.
Hydrophillic means the opposite.
Amphipathic means it can go either way depending on the context. They are polar and non-polar

Call me a major nerd but this chart is very moving for me. These 20 amino acids, with all the similar chemicals; Carbon, Hydrogen, Nitrogen, Oxygen, rearranged in different ways and put in different contexts make up ALL the diversity of life on this planet and how many others! It really begs the question; What is the source then of expression of our souls, music, art, dance, sexuality, and love? Can the answer be found in how these proteins fold? It would only be a partial answer but to start the New Science with actual ethics we really need to understand how proteins fold.

White Wind, Red Earth, Blue Night, Blue Hand, Yellow Star, and Yellow Seed are not going to wear their heart on their sleeve or run to the beach. They prefer the trees, soil and plants and they are known to not tell the truth about their feelings or even know how they feel in the first place. They have feelings but they are AWOL.

Red Serpent, White World-Bridger, White Dog, Yellow Human, Red Dragon, Blue Monkey, Red Skywalker, Blue Eagle, and Yellow Warrior will go for a dip and thrive near water. They prefer bodies of water to the earth and want to talk about their feelings.

White Wizard, Blue Storm, White Mirror, and Red Moon will be unpredictable. It could go either way. These folks have mood instabilities.

Most interesting is that Sulfur, looking at Methionine and Cysteine, was the first substance to begin life on this planet and the Red Dragon tribe was here first according to Mayan history as far as entities. They are Tribe #1, have attributes of blood memory, nurturing, being, birth, protective, primordial mother, memory, creative energy and supportive.

Sulfur Chemistry May Have Paved the Way for Evolution of Antioxidants

https://www.liebertpub.com/doi/full/10.1089/ast.2019.2156

A SULFUR BATH doesn’t exactly sound comfy to we soft mammalian humans now but back then, the whole planet was sulfur. We had to begin that way and the reptiles evolution is still part of our bird brains. They even call it the reptilian brain and indeed, birds evolved from the dinosaurs.

Methionine is the other sulfur containing amino acid and is THE start codon in line sequencing. The tRNA cell holds the mRNA which finds the start codon; UAC in the anti-codon, starts to match things up and translates the codons into an mRNA strand. This is all mirrored almost exactly in the Tzolkin, 5 archetype themeplex. They even look the same.

Energy can collapse through time?


Read this carefully. From all reports, the ET’s do know how to “change” mass and disappear though time but I don’t think it collapses or creates a vacuum. That sounds vulgar and moving from 3D to 4D is not vulgar but elegant. It’s just a change in the vibrational rate. I see it in the Tzolkin movement of the DNA and that is probably what the ET’s know how to do.

There are humans who know how to utilize the natural time portals on the planet and in the cosmic Web but they suppress that info. from us because we’re not elite.

The reason the time portals work, which supposedly the Germans have had a corner on since post World War II, is because they’ve got cooperative contracts with certain groups that view humans as a resource to be controlled and used. They taught them how to manipulate mass in time, thus our current situation on the surface. They not only steal our money and stuff but our time as well.

Time affecting mass is not that big of a deal if you understand the way our DNA moves which is illuminated in the Tzolkin. Time is doing it to our hodies right now via our minds. If this is true it would prove that it’s normal for 3D to move into 4D, 3rd Dimension into 4th dimensional time because they are the same so it’s easy to move through.

Sunday Reading; Yellow 4 Warrior Histidine is moving as RNA


Code0-19; 14:16:4:56 We are in the 14th harmonic out of 65, the 16th Amino Acid and archetype out of 20, the 4th tone of 13 and the 56th kin of 260 in a Mayan year. This is our location in our local universe.

This is the Mayan depiction of tone 4 Histidine in Themeplex with Alanine, Glutamic Acid, Threonine, and Serine. They rotate radially from center to left just like the ancient symbol for life; the wastika. The Nazi’s co-opted it and reversed its direction to the right during WWII and the present to use its power for death, destruction, control, greed, and torture. They are most definitely still around and in Shadow. In fact they head up the cabal on earth and keep the time warp going.

The Mayan names are Yellow Warrior, Blue Night, Yellow Human, White WorldBridger and Red Serpent.

In synchronicity, we have the war based Pentagon showing up geometrically in the histidine molecule. In addition, the mediating planet for histidine is Saturn which historically and currently rules strategic war planning.

“Histidine (His) may be both polar and charged, depending on the environment and pH of the solution. It has two –NH group with a pKa value of around 6. When both groups are protonated, the side chain has a charge of +1. However, the pKa may be modulated by the environment inside the protein in a way that the side chain may give away a proton and become neutral, or accept a proton, becoming charged. This ability makes histidine useful within enzyme active sites.”-proteinstructures.com

Alanine, the analog Blue 4 Night and 10 Serine, the Hidden Wisdom are hydrophobic or not favorable to water.

Glutamic Acid, the guide power Yellow Human is a charged side chain that forms a salt bridge in the molecule.

Histidine, Serine, and Threonine are Polar and form Hydrogen bonds as proton donors or acceptors. Serine (Ser) and threonine (Thr) are polar since both carry a hydroxyl group.

Sunday. Tone 4 Histidine is moving as RNA


Code0-19; 14:16:4:56 We are in the 14th harmonic out of 65, the 16th Amino Acid and archetype out of 20, the 4th tone of 13 and the 56th kin of 260 in a Mayan year. This is our location in our local universe.

This is the Mayan depiction of tone 4 Histidine in Themeplex with Alanine, Glutamic Acid, Threonine, and Serine. They rotate radially from center to left just like the ancient symbol for life; the wastika. The Nazi’s co-opted it and reversed its direction to the right during WWII and the present to use its power for death, destruction, control, greed, and torture. They are most definitely still around and in Shadow. In fact they head up the cabal on earth and keep the time warp going.

The Mayan names are Yellow Warrior, Blue Night, Yellow Human, White WorldBridger and Red Serpent.

In synchronicity, we have the war based Pentagon showing up geometrically in the histidine molecule. In addition, the mediating planet for histidine is Saturn which historically and currently rules strategic war planning.

“Histidine (His) may be both polar and charged, depending on the environment and pH of the solution. It has two –NH group with a pKa value of around 6. When both groups are protonated, the side chain has a charge of +1. However, the pKa may be modulated by the environment inside the protein in a way that the side chain may give away a proton and become neutral, or accept a proton, becoming charged. This ability makes histidine useful within enzyme active sites.”-proteinstructures.com

Alanine, the analog Blue 4 Night and 10 Serine, the Hidden Wisdom are hydrophobic or not favorable to water.

Glutamic Acid, the guide power Yellow Human is a charged side chain that forms a salt bridge in the molecule.

Histidine, Serine, and Threonine are Polar and form Hydrogen bonds as proton donors or acceptors. Serine (Ser) and threonine (Thr) are polar since both carry a hydroxyl group.

My Hypothetical question and Hypothetical Statement as part of this Scientific Study.


Q: Is DNA-RNA movement equivalent to the movement of time?

Statement: “This study is designed to assess my hypothesis that the radial movement of RNA-DNA is the radial movement of time.

Once I’m done with my current phase of background research I am looking for interested scientists to help me;

  1. Design an experiment
  2. Collect data
  3. Analyze the results
  4. Draw conclusions
  5. Communicate the results

Repost of a post from May 2020; I am no longer a Democrat


I remember writing this two years ago and it still holds. What a riot.

When scamdemic started in March 2020 and they started lockdowns, I and millions of others saw through it. I was very outspoken from the beginning. As they got serious over two years, my holistic biz page was kicked off of FB. All of my FB friends unfriended me and I unfriended them. I got hate mail from 3 patients who said the virus was my fault. I was shadow-banned on Twitter and now I’ve been kicked off of LinkedIn. There is a price to pay for honesty if you’re a woman. Working to be a cut above has its challenges.

I get a kick out of all of it. The Universe has my back and if you do the same, they will have yours.

I’m not a Pub either. No way. Politically I’ve been a Centrist for a long time which right now leans toward Justin Amash 2020 who is actually my neighbor from West Grand Rapids. He grew up in this neighborhood and has actually visited my house.

I feel much better about myself being honest in the political stance I was raised to despise. My family are all liberal, far left-wing Obama worshippers, and believe he is the reincarnation of Jesus Christ, so…that’s not working for me. It’s just the government, not a church. My great grandfathers Townsend risked a limb or two and wrote the freedom of religion clause for the Flushing Remonstrance that was eventually included in the Bill of Rights. I’m not giving that one away. No establishment of religion in America!

The most nauseating part of this is that on my personal wall on Facebook unless my picture is smiling and cute or pretty and I post little niceisms about my son or the weather, I’m absolutely ignored. If I post anything powerful against the panicdemic that is absolutely true from licensed physicians or nurses, or epidemiologists, I’m ignored. I really want to unfriend every one of them that have dissed me because I’m opinionated and an activist for physical and financial sovereignty in a culture that views human beings as stupid commodities to be manipulated until the funeral industry can make a pretty penny off of your death. (They unfriended me actually)

I want to create a new, powerful, more outspoken than ever persona that is as calm, lucid, intelligent, and beautiful to the point where no one can see me coming. I’m not bothering with resisting idiots, I’m BEING who I am in my full power and could care less what anyone’s reaction is. Facts are facts. Feelings are feelings. We are each free under our Constitution. If you believe the news media or watch a lot of TV your brain is fried and I’m not helping you. I want to be intimidating. I do think it’s better to be feared than loved on this planet of little human love.

What I can’t quite figure out is the odd time fold where my mind flipped fully away from liberal, left-wing thinking. For years, I’ve found the Disney trope of Democrats to be nauseating; their fear of anything outside of their comfy Protestant church service, hometown, their grandchildren, and quilting to be mind-numbing, their WASPYness making me crave a raft of ants in the rainforest to gobble them up. (Wasp vs. Antman).

The Trump lovers on Twitter are even bothering me. I fully support the disclosure of 100  years of secrets regarding the ETs and tech but I wonder how it’s going to happen without the liberals losing their minds. Hillary and her elite clique being Luciferian, bloodthirsty pedophiles I don’t find hard to believe but if they really let this out some Americans will go over the cliff. Are the right-wingers serious that we are supposed to believe that there are NO REPUBLICAN Luciferians? , the Pubs are lily-white on this issue? No way. The entire government is corrupt and all the institutions with it.

I’m not sure what this new world will bring but I’ve most definitely run away from home, far, far away from the National House and I’m never coming back. They are the biggest pack of liars and their followers the biggest flock of sheeple I’ve ever seen.

Thank you.


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Mothers Day


I wrote this ten years ago today and forgot about it. Good ole’ FB memories

To all the Mothers:

Happy Mother’s Day.

May the abundance of the Earth and the light of the sun, moon, and stars wash your feet with the holy water borne of many tears turned to a blessed stream ambling through a heart full of joy. -ME (5/9/10)

Essay; No Possession in Relationships


just because someone desires you.

I guess the saying above could apply to women and to men but women are quite a bit more pre-meditated in choosing which men to talk to and then sleep with. Our lust does not control our rationality, much to men’s dismay. Sometimes mine does but I’m working on curbing it now that I realize men fall in love easier than women do, even it’s just our breasts they’re in love with.

This is especially the case for women of reproductive age. So mostly, this applies to women. Just because a man desires you doesn’t mean he values you. For men, this could say, “Just because a woman likes to talk to you doesn’t mean she values you or loves you.” But if SHE SAID she loves she does. We don’t say that lightly.

If people are not possessions then relationships with them cannot be assessed like an insurance adjustor would assess the damage done to a car.

Loss Adjuster Inspecting Car Involved In Accident
I’m following up on my previous post “Bonding Instead of Possession”, and suggesting a compromise between men’s dualistic approach to relationships which is either promiscuity or possession. Analyzing a relationship is not akin to being an insurance claims adjustor. It’s a matter for your HEARTSET to assess the situation which entails your feelings and then use intuition since feelings only lead to intuition which is the higher mind. No one is called to act on, indulge, or hold on to their feelings. Feelings are supposed to lead to the movement of Mind and Heart so we can make informed choices. You can’t leave out Heart or Mind or it will fail. That’s the whole point of knowing your feelings and it’s not minor. The Intuition leads to the higher mind and the rational leads to the lower mind. One is fast, one is slow. I didn’t figure that out, the scientists did, nor do I really like the situation but that seems to be the way the brain is laid out for now until we evolve differently.

Promiscuity or possession is an all or nothing approach, a decisive approach that actually is emotional, even passionate based on physical lust, need, and desire, not love.

Why is it considered normal and acceptable for men to not want a relationship but not women? Many women, including me, like being single, but I like friendship, love, and sex but I don’t want to be in a relationship. I like my absolute freedom and need it. I also like monogamy but only if the man doesn’t go overboard.

Can a man process all of that and accept that I don’t want to possess or control him and he can’t possess or control me?

So far, no.

Now in 2025, I think there are unique circumstances where two people love each other and want to be together. You have to go with the flow. But if STAFF and FAMILY or money are interfering with two people being together that is PURE EVIL. The universe needs to intercede and synchronicity needs to control the situation. There is no stronger magnet on earth than love.💞

Physical, Human Connection…REALIZE.


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I Haven’t Written about Intimacy in Awhile


…because a panicdemic isn’t exactly an inspiration to intimacy.

IT’S A DIFFERENT WORLD SINCE I LAST REALLY POSTED ANYTHING!

I’m just going to say it. If you’re well and have faith in your immune system, know that you make antibodies as everyone does and feel like you can walk above the Fear Fray, HAVE SEX!

I’m above the fear fray. I’m incapable of following the crowd on this. Literally. I watch NO T.V. Because I know better. Being holistic, I know the facts about the body and take care of myself.  I don’t rely on doctors and their pills. I use herbs and take Chinese anti-viral herbs that make it impossible for a virus to go into your lungs. YEAH, THEY SHOULD BE ALL OVER THE HOSPITAL but there is no way Big Pharma would let Chinese herbs that work in there, even if they can save lives.

Being who I am, I know how to pretend I’m complying and then do the little actions and use the little wipes, hand washing like it’s a religion, social distancing, blah, blah, blah that everyone thinks is SO powerful and make my office smell like Lysol which is actually not good for us. I actually do it, probably more than the fear people because I coddle the fearful people too much. I feel sorry for them having no faith whatsoever in their bodies.

It’s because they THINK THAT and FEEL that that gives it power. I feel it already without the little anti-microbial everything. Someone do me and people LIKE ME a favor and have a better understanding of how your body really works and some FAITH in your very powerful immune system. We never get that satisfaction. We just get to see darting eyes behind and mask and FEAR oozing out of every part of your body while you walk really fast from the grocery store. Do you know how TOXIC that is?

This whole thing is killing intimacy of any kind and sex and I find it very, very sinister to the social fabric of humanity. We’ll see if they really intend to open up normal movement again. Just start doing it yourself quietly. If everyone does without making a fuss then who is going to stop them?

What is intimate is the virus itself. It’s microscopic folks. It’s smaller than any moisture cells that come out of your mouth during a sneeze. The mask everyone is making like Betsy Ross made the flag aren’t helping with anything. If you sneeze, the microscopic virus goes right through the fibers of the mask. Outside particles in the air go right into and through because they’re microscopic. The only mask that stops it is N95 and I have one. A healthcare worker gave it to me so I could work on her. It’s asphyxiating meaning it works to keep out the virus. Oxygen can barely get in which means nothing in the air is getting in. That’s how you know it works. And you could faint wearing it. So the masks that do work don’t allow you to breathe. There’s a quick death. The whole mask issue is one of psychological false sense of security. If your vibe is full of fear you weaken your immune system.

Anyway…your mind (thoughts and feelings) control your immune system. There are all kinds of nasties, every day of your life in your body that if multiplied, would kill you quickly. Mammals are full of destructive microbes! All the time! We don’t die because our immune systems are 1 million years old of brilliant and are on vigilant guard and go after anything that gets out of line UNLESS, we tell them to stand down and let the killing begin. Meaning, you, the host, feel weak and sad and want to die. That doesn’t usually happen but this would be a good time to split if you felt like it. No one would question you, no hassle. The virus would be blamed, you would not be.

I feel the lack of intimacy and socializing is worse for people than the virus. We are meant to be together. This distrust of our bodies and the immune system is nonsense. That said if you feel weak and full of fear you should stay home because your vibe is toxic. Maybe not just now but all the time. You’ve got some meditating to do and choices to make about your relationship with Life.

Intimacy; Panicdemic


…because a panicdemic isn’t exactly an inspiration to intimacy.

IT’S A DIFFERENT WORLD SINCE I LAST REALLY POSTED ANYTHING!

I’m just going to say it. If you’re well and have faith in your immune system, know that you make antibodies as everyone does and feel like you can walk above the Fear Fray, HAVE SEX!

I’m above the fear fray. I’m incapable of following the crowd on this. Literally. I watch NO T.V. Because I know better. Being holistic, I know the facts about the body and take care of myself.  I don’t rely on doctors and their pills. I use herbs and take Chinese anti-viral herbs that make it impossible for a virus to go into your lungs. YEAH, THEY SHOULD BE ALL OVER THE HOSPITAL but there is no way Big Pharma would let Chinese herbs that work in there, even if they can save lives.

Being who I am, I know how to pretend I’m complying and then do the little actions and use the little wipes, hand washing like it’s a religion, social distancing, blah, blah, blah that everyone thinks is SO powerful and make my office smell like Lysol which is actually not good for us. I actually do it, probably more than the fear people because I coddle the fearful people too much. I feel sorry for them having no faith whatsoever in their bodies.

It’s because they THINK THAT and FEEL that that gives it power. I feel it already without the little anti-microbial everything. Someone do me and people LIKE ME a favor and have a better understanding of how your body really works and some FAITH in your very powerful immune system. We never get that satisfaction. We just get to see darting eyes behind and mask and FEAR oozing out of every part of your body while you walk really fast from the grocery store. Do you know how TOXIC that is?

This whole thing is killing intimacy of any kind and sex and I find it very, very sinister to the social fabric of humanity. We’ll see if they really intend to open up normal movement again. Just start doing it yourself quietly. If everyone does without making a fuss then who is going to stop them?

What is intimate is the virus itself. It’s microscopic folks. It’s smaller than any moisture cells that come out of your mouth during a sneeze. The mask everyone is making like Betsy Ross made the flag aren’t helping with anything. If you sneeze, the microscopic virus goes right through the fibers of the mask. Outside particles in the air go right into and through because they’re microscopic. The only mask that stops it is N95 and I have one. A healthcare worker gave it to me so I could work on her. It’s asphyxiating meaning it works to keep out the virus. Oxygen can barely get in which means nothing in the air is getting in. That’s how you know it works. And you could faint wearing it. So the masks that do work don’t allow you to breathe. There’s a quick death. The whole mask issue is one of psychological false sense of security. If your vibe is full of fear you weaken your immune system.

Anyway…your mind (thoughts and feelings) control your immune system. There are all kinds of nasties, every day of your life in your body that if multiplied, would kill you quickly. Mammals are full of destructive microbes! All the time! We don’t die because our immune systems are 1 million years old of brilliant and are on vigilant guard and go after anything that gets out of line UNLESS, we tell them to stand down and let the killing begin. Meaning, you, the host, feel weak and sad and want to die. That doesn’t usually happen but this would be a good time to split if you felt like it. No one would question you, no hassle. The virus would be blamed, you would not be.

I feel the lack of intimacy and socializing is worse for people than the virus. We are meant to be together. This distrust of our bodies and the immune system is nonsense. That said if you feel weak and full of fear you should stay home because your vibe is toxic. Maybe not just now but all the time. You’ve got some meditating to do and choices to make about your relationship with Life.

A Matter of Opinion


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“Some people need to take their own advice instead of endlessly propelling it at others. “The truth” is only “their truth” which is just their opinion. There are facts of science and nature. But when it comes to people, it is all relative. It is a matter of opinion.”-Me, Lisa K. Townsend

Intimacy; Familiar Lover


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It’s so much easier to melt into your warm flesh because I know how you smell and your voice.

It’s just the nurturing comfort I need right now but you won’t kiss me as you did before.

Something is distinctly unfamiliar…

You feel different in my bed, humidity on a dry, cold, windy day when the sun is loitering in the sky rather than actually warming things up.

You’re a woke soul, a man not a boy with your dreams doing cartwheels.

It’s not love, it’s familiarity which so many humans mistakenly wrap their arms around in tribal joy.

No doubt, what is familiar today will change tomorrow and that intrepid fact is forever familiar all around us.

Intimacy; Gray Area Between Relationship and Hookup?


I wrote this in 2020. I am not the same in 2025.-L.T.

I have to admit, if I’m not looking for a committed relationship with a man I don’t pay much attention to personally. I’m looking for an attraction for sex or a lover. Women are no different from men sometimes.

Having touch and sex is a health issue. We all need it! I’m not throwing guilt in there but I do notice that the emotional detachment with a man turns me off no matter how hot he is. I appreciate the beauty of a man though just as much as men do with women. Yet, it’s not even close to being like love.

Things get tricky when a man is your friend and you have things in common and have known each other for a while. If he has a disposable hookup habit with women who are not friends how will he handle sex with a friend? Another notch only meaner? He gets double points for disposing of a female friend? Ultimately, she’s only a woman and nothing stops him from devouring as much as he can for free.

Being women, we do have the ability to make a man fall in love with us by loving him from the heart, talking to him, and being irresistibly sexy even while we’re free spirits and have no intention of having him on a hook. Personally, I have no desire for a man around just as I have no pet in the house. I’m busy with the work I love. But I’m not sure I want the burden of a man in love with me to weigh me down.

I think you have to be ready to lose the friendship on the sex altar. It happens on the attraction and flirting altar too. That just ended one of my friendships. We didn’t even have sex but we may as well have because the energy and affection were there…then it left. It was his doing because he decided to hook up with someone else much easier to handle, blonder, and more tattooed likely with piercings in all the gross places. Lol. She was his level.

There is a gray area in there somewhere. I just haven’t found the sweet spot. Que sera sera.

Bill Evans and Eddie Gomez on the album “Intuition”


Intimacy; dogs or gods?


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Who could resist that adorable puppy coming running toward them for attention? There ya have it. That’s the curse women are under with cute men. I’ve interviewed women and they agree. When a man is really cute he’s very hard to resist!  It’s terrible. We just want to love em’ up and feed them, make up a dog house, let them stay over, oh geez, on and on and it does us in. There goes the peace we need as females and space to take care of ourselves and get our work done. We really need to learn to resist this instinct!

True to form, I learn something every day about women and men, our basic natures, and realize there were many things I was not taught growing up. Can you relate to that moment someone close to you said something off the cuff and it stuck in your head? That was the case for me with my second husband Dave (my son’s father). He was walking up the stairs one day after a normal conversation and he looked at me and said “We’re like dogs. Men are like dogs” Some men are fancy dogs, or rich dogs, or bad dogs, or good dogs, or work dogs. Some are both! Some are crazy dogs or funny dogs, sexy dogs or sweet dogs. You get the idea.

If you read my blog regularly you can guess I looked at him with disbelief and derision. In no way was I going to accept that as an excuse for his behavior. Nor had I ever entertained a career in dog training or dog breeding by letting a man live with me. I’ve never even owned a dog and don’t want to because I’m consistently told that they are like having another child! Children need to be patted on the head and encouraged, praised with kind words, fed, loved, and kept warm and more. I already did that with my son. I don’t need to do that with a man or a dog. It’s a turn off to me to think about treating a man like a dog. But now I’ve been mulling it over.

I can say with assurance that I have always worked toward and considered myself a goddess as opposed to dog food. In no way have I ever fed my body to a lusty man to be consumed because he’s hungry. I think most women do though! They accept it! It does feel good and women most definitely have the instinct to feed men but it will kill your self-esteem and is not emotionally good for women.

On the other hand, men love those superheroes and I know for a fact they have a rich fantasy life about what great warrior heroes and magical powers they might possess. There’s nothing a man loves more than seeing a woman look at him sincerely as her hero. It’s not that a woman wants or needs to be rescued. We really don’t. But sometimes we definitely do need protection in a very rough world. Sure,  IronMan to the scene! I’m good with that and Robert Downey Jr. is a major hottie. A man who is a god can be recognized as truly wanting and respecting an intelligent woman who takes care of her own business. He takes care of his own business so he isn’t bothering her like a little kid and her in the role of his mother. No thanks. He also takes care of his health and teeth so he pleases her physically and of course, she does the same. Most of all, he likes himself and has matured to the point of being able to listen and care about how a woman feels.

So I can honestly say I’ve decided I am looking for a man who knows he really IS a god just as I know I am a goddess. It’s an awareness of the divinity within us; one with us and is the goal of the Spiritual movement. You won’t find it in religion and I’m guessing they find it heretical. Spiritual people are not saying we are God. We’re saying that our identity is an ascending child of God which is a god or goddess. We’re working on ourselves to get better every day. Every single human being has this in them; in our blood which is our QI, or consciousness. I’m not the goddess I want to be or know I can be yet but I’m almost there and it has nothing to do with age. That will be the subject of another blog.