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Identify Your Distortions and Remedy Your Hindrances to Feel Better and Raise your Self-Esteem


We have Corey Goode to thank for this edification. He receives support from the Blue Avian and the Anshar. It takes work and focus mainly because of the subconscious programming of our family upbringing, but also because of our past lives that we brought to the planet with us. It’s our karma. If you follow the Tzolkin you will see it in your antipode position and your subconscious Hidden Wisdom position; your challenge and your gift. That’s the CA, civilizational advance, past to present timeline. Your support and guide power position will show you your dharma. There’s the balanced double helix of your DNA in the Tzolkin Theme-plex.

It might be time to suggest a new future to ourselves based on our Higher Selves. We can receive that information into our bodies by absorbing the light photons from our Sun. Just sit in the sun and it will reprogram your DNA. If you focus your mind on what you want all the better. The process of changing DNA via photons is highlighted in the Saturn video I just posted by David Wilcock. This is a scientifically established fact and has been for some time. That said, your Mind controls what the Sun can impart to you. You could hex it just as you can anything good when you have a negative attitude. I’m professional at that but I know how to pivot when I feel like it.

A few of my hindrances/distortions are;

  • belief that there is no way my work will be taken seriously if people know I’m a woman
  • belief that I have to align with a male in academia to be taken seriously
  • belief that, like other women who discovered things, someone will attempt to steal it and take credit for it
  • Based on observation and experience, women who are not fit and smiling have no power and aren’t respected. We have to objectify ourselves or we don’t exist
  • Intelligent women are threatening and unlovable to most men.
  • There is a big gender imbalance on the planet and I’m not sure how to approach it yet. But everyone woman I discuss it with has internalized it even more than I have so…we need to keep talking to one another. I know men have issues too but I barely understand them.

The good part is that I know there’s a slim chance that someone will get what I’m saying and help move it forward but I also accept that chances are I’ll fail. I have no problem with that because I know I’m right unless someone proves it to me otherwise, I love the work, I’m here to leave it and maybe posthumously it will be appreciated. I don’t care. Just because you are correct about something doesn’t mean it will spread. In fact, it’s usually the opposite.

And as my son reminded me of something I already know, unless you let that go of a belief, you’re drawing it to you. It’s harder to let go if it’s a deeply held belief by millions of people because then it’s socially affirmed.

Although, I have no trouble believing that illness and aging is B.S.yet almost everyone believes that is truth. I don’t and I never will. That is a HUGE distortion and basic ignorance about the power of the human body to exist in timelessness and heal our DNA.

Sitting in the sun can make you sleepy. That’s because it’s releasing healing hormones in your brain just as bodywork and Reiki do; serotonin, dopamine, enkephalins, etc.
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Essay; There is Pressure on Women to Hold Ourselves in Higher Esteem


“Women, love and honor yourself even if by the societal view you are a freak, brilliant, ugly or super beautiful, fit or not fit. If you’re not average, other women will be jealous and you’ll need to live with that.”

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The reason being, in truth, every woman is a goddess. Some women feel and know this and many more don’t and are very dependent as opposed to being interdependent. That’s where the jealousy and the trouble come in for men. Men long for us to know how beautiful we are and some get very co-dependent with low self-esteem women trying to convince them that they need to love themselves. Women are love on the planet but if a woman doesn’t claim that it becomes hell on earth. Men are mere mortals wishing to be superheroes! Men that think they’re gods already are gay or bi-sexual and have incorporated the female principle into themselves to try to bring balance. And how do they act? Like a woman! Fine, but they are still males and can’t make a human being in their body. There’s that. A male truly becomes a god when he joins with a female and they have a child together. That is a powerful creation and males and females get credit for that. If it’s only one child, that may be more responsible in my view. Society should never denigrate procreation. It’s our main biological mandate on the planet and would completely throw us off as a species if we no longer valued children.
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“Men feel and view our bodies as heaven, paradise, light, love, sex, food, everything they want and need and they want and need to lose themselves in us.”

That is pressure on women. I am hearing that in every single modern day pop song sung by men. Women who watch it say, “ALL they want is SEX.”. To men, that’s the pinnacle on earth. That’s all there is or needs to be. That’s as happy as they can get. Like Bruno Mars sings, “Your sex takes me to paradise”. They mean it. Just because women are not that way doesn’t mean EVERYONE should be that way. To the extent to which society, Church, State, and women deny them the greatest heaven they can have is the degree to which they are frustrated, pissed, feeling upset and victimized and die early of heart disease. This issue has got to be seen and accepted by society about men and balanced with women taking care of themselves and making money.

They can’t be any different nor should they. Sex is love to them. What’s wrong with that? Nature IS love. The Earth IS love. The natural world IS love. I’m holistic so resisting that is what drives us nuts. It’s the reason our healthcare system, our planet, and our society are falling apart is the DENIAL OF THE BODY which MEN LOVE more than anything. So what is patriarchy but men trying NOT TO BE DENIED THEIR MANHOOD by every single institution in existence? I’m just guessing. Don’t send me hate mail, please. What are we saying to them and about ourselves when we tell them to stop wanting sex so much? You may as well ask them to stop breathing or the sun to stop shining. Well, that IS what we’re doing to the planet right now.

Like Rajesh said to Penny on “Big Bang Theory”, “You can’t ruin a friendship with sex. That’s like ruining a chocolate cupcake with sprinkles!” My god, I love that line. It epitomizes the difference between how men and women think. I think if men had their way, they’d have sex with anyone, anytime just to show their love. It’s analogous to women showing their love by hugging and talking! We do that all the time and think it’s fine. But you say, “You can’t get pregnant hugging someone.” There is the crux of the issue and the problem for men. So use birth control and have as much sex as you want. The other crux; women’s feelings.

This is unfathomable for people to believe, but it is only recently in human history that people realized that it takes the male sperm to cause conception and make a human being. Up until that time, early humans thought it was magic, we had matriarchy where men were just having sex with anyone they wanted with any woman and going from place to place spreading their sperm around. No one knew who the fathers were, the children didn’t know their fathers and there was no marriage. That was matriarchy and women dominated and raised the children in groups of women and children. The men were off separate with one another.

I’m not saying I personally like the polyamorous nature of most men. I’m a female with high self-esteem so I believe I have plenty, just me alone, for a man who truly adores me. I just don’t expect it from most men. A man who prefers bitches and whores with no emotional bonding or love is one himself! When a man I’m with lets me know those are his values then I think, “Ok, then you aren’t going to get me. You’re only going to get a weak woman with no self-esteem and don’t whine about it. You get what you are!” Men with high self-esteem are attracted to women with high self-esteem and he’s done being polyamorous. That’s another level of nature. Men at the lower level, don’t even try to tell me that monogamous men who adore women who are fully in tune with their bodies and feelings don’t exist. They do! I can provide a man with great, varied sex, great conversation, loyal love and more. Can you take being loved?

Patriarchy changed all of that and territory, The state, The Church, and the institution of the family were born. Now we call it civilization. Have we decided if this is good or bad yet? We know now that when a man and woman live together and fight, which they always do, it is very psychologically damaging to the child. So how great is it really for the father to live with the mother and the child or children in just the family unit? Statistics show men tend to be violent toward the women and children too (domestic violence). So, I don’t know if patriarchy is working. Add to that the men’s testosterone loves war, blowing stuff up, rape, and what have you and I’m not sure women’s paradise has civilized them nor should it. Besides, we deny it to them most of the time and just think they should work and make money. That’s not fair to men.

We need a new way where the nature of men and the nature of woman is balanced. We just don’t know what that is yet while keeping the planet in one piece.