Parsing Your Own Karma-Dharma Status Based on the Interplanetary Holon


Hit the “Dreamspell Calculator” button to find out your tribe and tone on the link below. There is no fudging on your birth gateway. That is your destiny line-up. You have a choice over the details regarding how it proceeds but not on the actual placement. Your gateway pulses to your astrology chart, which is a 3D manifestation. The Mayan Oracle is upper-density timelessness.

http://www.astrodreamadvisor.com/free_mayan_readings.html

Looking at it, karma is on the left and dharma on the right but in your body, it’s the opposite. The right side of your body expresses your karma and the left is your dharma.

It’s s good idea to make the most of your BodyTime on the planet by addressing your karma-dharma issues. Otherwise, you will endlessly be on the karmic wheel or hamster wheel as I see it. What a drag. Especially given how vast the universe is,  you could be checking out other digs.

There are many people for which life is like a hamster wheel. It might be you in which case, study your analog support. It can raise you up whether it’s an event or person. Look for and listen to your dharma teacher. Teachers will be in faithful service to your students. It’s paying it forward in gratitude.

Everyone is at a different point in their evolution and you are under no obligation to co-dependently try to help them if they are resisting. However, if you see that person often and a teachable moment comes up, it’s a good idea to say something as long as you believe they can hear it. Use your intuition for the teachable moment. The Tao Te Ching says, “What is a good man but a bad man’s teacher? What is a bad man but a good man’s work?”That’s karma and dharma in a nutshell.

We are each born to the planet as either a teacher of those who are asleep, or asleep ourselves and in need of a teacher. You know which one you are. The Tao uses the words good and bad but I’m not sure that’s in line with the heart of the universe. Good and bad are moralistic judgments whereas right and wrong are according to universal law.

Morality is just cultural mores, in my opinion, and doesn’t follow universal law. Religion is a perfect example. It’s moralistic, but it is not teaching universal truth. That’s the problem with religion. Religion teaches that a book and God are the sources of morals when actually it’s humans teaching their way, not God’s way.

Karma and Dharma between your Theme and Analog

Generally speaking, if you were born on the karmic side, starting with the sun tribe which is the left side looking at it but the right side of the body, you are here to learn, face your lessons, and use your analog energy to transform and be a good example to others. If you do teach, it’s by example when you’ve decided to face the situation or if you stay in shadow or go deeper into shadow you teach what NOT to do. That is just as valid.

If you were born on the dharmic prophetic side starting with White Dog at the bottom, you’ve already gone through many lifetimes and figured it out and made good choices. Don’t doubt yourself. “Been there done that.” You’re in dharma and here to teach what you’ve been through already. Kin on the dharmic side will tend to believe they’re not done with their karma yet when in fact they are so they are here to remember what they already achieved, let go of guilt and B.S and lead. They’re not done sharing what they’ve learned. The hindrance is karmic kins’ egos resisting being taught which is why they are still in the karma cycle. We all have universal support. We just have to call on it.

There is an issue on earth with respecting teachers bc people are little egos. It’s the root of addiction which is karma. We tend to kill the messenger, like a crucifixion. Your teachers are not better than you, they’re just in a different place in their evolution. Teachers can relate to those still steeped in their karma because we made those choices too and came out the other side! Don’t hate your teachers or be jealous! They’re here to remember and let go of their finished karma. They passed. No guilt. We are focused on the axis of the eternal present and if we keep punishing ourselves over karma we’re done with, we can’t focus on teaching very well.

The goal is for both sides of the holon to sit in the axis of the eternal present, the brain, and spine, and transcend both being a student and a teacher. I know that T9-12 in the spine refers to HF33 so keeping the muscles completely loose there may be helpful. Those nerve roots innervate the adrenal glands on top of the kidney and have much to do with the deterioration of the body Qi and stress. Also, L2 refers to White 4 Self-Existing Wizard which is self-existing timelessness. I believe that attribute resides in the body. Physical death isn’t necessary.

Let’s start at the top of the holon. This moves from karmic kin to your exact dharmic kin, left to right across from each other, although any dharmic kin can teach karmic kin. Just look at the top image to understand which kin needs to be close to you.

  • If you were born a karmic Yellow Sun kin you are here to learn to become enlightened. You are not yet enlightened even if you think you are. Your analog, Blue Storm is enlightened and is going to give you the gift and support of seeing and feeling your ability to Self-Generate in this lifetime. You will be presented over and over with events and people that will force you to take care of yourself and feel your power to step up and do good and LOVE. You may go through hell in mind, body and spirit while you get enlightened or the suffering will come and teach it another way.
  • If you were born a dharmic Blue Storm kin you are here to teach self-generation because you’ve already gone through the fire and the suffering that it takes to become enlightened. I know quite a few Blue Storm people and are they ever hopeful hippies with loving hearts. I love working with them as lightworkers. They use their karmic memory of the trauma of enlightenment (Yellow Sun) to relate to others in a compassionate way.
  • If you were born a karmic Red Dragon kin you are here to learn family bonding, loyalty and what being a mother or a parent is all about, good and bad. White Mirror kin are going to support and teach you to meditate more and to become more reflective and spiritual. After all, your spiritual family is not of blood and birth but of the spirit. You will meet or be presented with opportunities to deepen your spiritual life.
  • If you were born a dharmic White Mirror kin you are here to teach reflection and resonance of the 4th dimension and higher density frequencies with Earth ancestry, QI, primordial history, possibly eastern mysticism or Chinese and Hindu ways to those that are imprisoned by their idea of birth ancestry in the Red Dragon tribe. Your memory of your own trauma and clenching of family power and ancestry will help you relate to those that need your teaching.
  • If you were born a karmic White Wind kin, you are here to learn the art of communication inspired by Spirit and Synchronicity. The shadow of this kin is political rhetoric and lying. We see a lot of this in the world right now. You will be presented many times with exceptional sight or observation of synchronicity (anaolog Red Earth) to help you navigate spiritual communcation that is in the light, helpful, and not shadow. If you stoop to senseless ego motivation of greed, earthly power, unloving sex, manipulation etc, the syncronicity that comes will be karmic and swift since it’s locked in to the GPS of the Matrix. This hindrance is a bit dangerous right now because of technology.
  • If you were born a dharmic Red Earth kin, you are here to teach spiritual attunement to the holgraphic field,the Earth Cycles, the Body, Intuition and general cooperation with Life around us, especially to White Wind kin. A Red Earth kin is a sponge for the frequencies and energies running around the planet, the weather cycles, having weather-head, being very psychic with the earth which is shamanic stuff. You will be reminded by your karmic analog that chaotic communication is very damaging. The Tiamat accident (The asteroid belt) is a perfect example. You are teaching balance with digital tech vs. using THE BODY for telepathy and healing which is totally possible, safe, and higher quality.
  • If you were born a karmic Blue Night kin, you are here to learn to receive and create abundance in all it’s forms and dimensions. Your analog, Yellow Warrior attributes and kin will present themselves to you over and over while you incorporate their intelligent lessons into your life. Opportunities to increase your intelligence, questioning, courage and trustworthiness to increase your status will come forward. You can teach through shadow or struggle regarding what not to do; intellectural laziness, fearfullness and lawbreaking would be the case.
  • If you were born a dharmic Yellow Warrior Kin you are here to teach how to express yourself intelligently, to be socially fearless yet considerate of differences, good to your word, psychic, spiritual, high standards and pragmantic. You’ve already been through poverty and victimhood or were born into a family like that to help you to remember what you already finished. You don’t have to be like them! Be sure to let them go and stand in your individual power so you can teach.
  • If you were born a karmic Yellow Seed Kin you are here to learn to focus your awareness and expand your soul through compressed DNA (the body) in this lifetime. DNA is spiritual, not just family blood but you may have been born into a family hindered by that. You will meet Blue Eagle kin or be presented with the attributes of vision, using your mind to create, being more independent, a receiver, listening, scientific, over and over so you can incorporate them into your life. Losing any bias toward others whatsoever, dropping ancestral bias or resentment of family history and class, becoming more independent and rational is your destiny.
  • If you were born a dharmic Blue Eagle Kin you are here to teach open-mindedness, vision, mental focus on restoring harmony, DNA expansion and flying above the fray. You may have been born into “an old guard” or “old money” family that had many biases and indolence to remind you of what you already finished. Let them go and stand in your individual achievement so you can teach others to LISTEN and problem solve by gaining a different perspective rather than asserting their ego.
  • If you were born a karmic Red Serpent kin you are here to learn a more spiritual approach to sex and physical passion or just the body fire. You may have been born into a sexually inappropriate family where the boundaries were absent or karma with the females in the family being too domineering or matriarchal in reaction to overly patriarchal males. This kicks in the dysfunctional cycle where the women are controlling of the weak men. You will be presented over and over with White Wizard kin or their attributes of timelessness, receptivity, magician, heart-centered and psychic while you incorporate those lessons into your life. Family members and friends will be White Wizard kin.
  • If you were born a dharmic White Wizard kin you are here to teach spirituality beyond religion, more body and earth centered and a balance between female and male. You are a heart-knowing shaman and have already come through the karma of wrong use of the body and sex so you may have experienced some of that in your childhood to jog your memory of what you already know and can teach. Let it go and focus on teaching the positive aspects of passion and the body. White Wizard understands eros.
  • If you were born a karmic White Worldbridger kin you are here to learn to accept change and death in the Matrix as part of the deal here. It gives everyone equal opportunity to have it set up that way so no one vibration dominates the planet. It helps evolution. You will need to internalize the action of forgiveness and surrender to Synchronicity in the holographic field the multidimensional waves coming in and being disruptive and grounding yourself in Spirit to thrive. You will be presented over and over with having to ADJUST and adapt to movement and the need for you and those around you to wake up. Red Skywalker kin will be near you or the attributes coming forward to stimulate your lessons. Being more retiring as White WB, Red Skywalker with their high-handed and high-minded ways will likely bother you but they have much to teach you about accepting what comes. We bother everyone so no matter.
  • If you were born a dharmic Red Skywalker kin you are here to teach that earth is a place to explore and discover, not be complacent lest you be run over, distracted by the toys, or preyed on. We ask people to get moving and work on themselves, set boundaries, and develop courage when the time is right. There is no coddling here. Earth is just space and 4D manifestation only, it’s not full reality. We’re in a hologram and most are asleep to that fact. We are crusaders to form a connection between heaven and earth and have already done it in other lifetimes on other planets. Red SW will come upon kin that are rigid or stuck in their ways, resistant to change and need to be more independent. It’s important for Red SW to lead in whatever work they do and never feel guilty for knowing which way to go in dimensions one through four while others are blind. We are time travellers. You may have been born into a family focused on death and virtue signalling through suffering to jog your memory of being done with that. There is no need for it after you’ve learned that it doesn’t work to improve anything. Personal empowerment and action rules the day. God is in us, not out there, unconditionally. Any other teaching is incorrect.
  • If you were born a karmic Blue Hand kin, you are here to learn to be a healer, be accomplished and know that you know, not doubt yourself. Yellow human kin or their attributes will repeatedly come up forcing you to see that people have freewill no matter what you prefer, for good or ill and you can’t control it. Humans hold the grail, the chalice or vessel of higher power and influence. Being wise, responsible and a hard worker are good things. Accomplishment is not high degrees and letters behind your name. Being a farmer, harvester and abundant in friends and life is success. Don’t give up your independence.
  • If you were a born dharmic Yellow Human kin you are here to teach freedom, freewill, abundance, working hard to create what you need independently,  and being a straightforward down to earth person. You may be born into an atmosphere that is somehow restrictive or not demonstrative so you have to bounce back knowing that you are strong and have already accomplished much on a personality level in other life times. There are different kinds of intelligence and not all of it is book knowledge.
  • If you were born a karmic Yellow Star kin you are here to learn to be an artist and create beauty for a living which you will do very well being clever and energetic. However, you will have lessons that Blue Monkey can teach you and you will likely resist. Yellow Star cares very much about appearances, like all of the yellow kin. Social networking is Yellow Kin life-blood. Issues of integrity, honesty, social principle and applying yourself will come up over and over.
  • If you were born a dharmic Blue Monkey you are likely charismatic or a performer. Physically very attractive, Blue Monkey kin understands magic, chanelling and creating. You are here to teach the value of being lighthearted and less serious. Some of you are clowns but there is always magic in your sphere.
  • If you were born a karmic Red Moon kin you are probably an empath and extremely sensitive. Ignore others who criticize you for that. Mean criticism is not love and your analog is LOVE. That’s what you need. You have a special healing skill, are usually very psychic and dreamy and like to be alone. Red Moon needs to sit in their own space and remote view in the ether. Your purpose is to purify, flow and use Universal water to do it. You can also be quite funny. You are fantasy prone, mutable, aware and strong in feelings. Don’t get cynical about the severity on earth. Attract White Dog kin teach to you or a mate who is White Dog. They will stimulate your lessons about using your empathic healing ability to create love and loyalty in your own life without feeling like you have to defend yourself.
  • If you were born a dharmic White Dog kin you are here to teach Love, loyalty and heart-centeredness. You are a mellow, strong leader and good companion. You can be faithful, a team player and a joiner depending on your tone of creation. You benefit from teaching a Red Moon kin. They need your highest vibe. So if you haven’t remembered that you already went through Red Moon lessons they will stimulate your memory. There is no way that any White Dog kin needs to go through emotional upheaval or addiction. Let it go and sit in your open heart chakra to heal yourself.

Essay: Maybe We’re Ghosts of Our Real Selves While in the Body


Thomas Beaudoin-Foxiest Man Alive IMO. Is he real? Maybe he is a ghost.

Have you seen the hokey Christmas movie “The Spirit of Christmas”? #1…why would I watch this dumb movie? To look at him! Holy Pete. Seriously. He is a good actor too.

He is White 2 Polar Dog and has Blue 12 Monkey as his Hidden Wisdom. Hmmm.

White Lunar Dog
Green Central Castle of Enchantment
Earth family- Polar      Clan- Truth
Galactic Activation Portal
I polarize in order to love
Stabilizing loyalty
I seal the process of heart
With the lunar tone of challenge
I am guided by the power of spirit
I am a galactic activation portal   enter me

In short, an Inn is haunted, of course, and the only reason this fellow is in physical (as a ghost) for 12 days is because he has karma (he was a rum runner, got a woman pregnant, and was murdered) of which he needs to let go. The two people he knew who have passed over, with whom he has karma, end up visiting him at the Inn so that he has the opportunity to forgive them or let go of them, which he does. Then they disappear into the next density. He decides to stay in 3D to be with his woman friend.

Because he’s able to cross densities, which he proves to his woman friend who is fully human, he can be in a dense body that others can touch but he doesn’t need food or sleep. That’s pretty interesting. Obviously, he’s receiving his sustenance from the other side. (we are to assume)

This is all fiction but it caused me to wonder about ghosts. Many people have experienced ghosts and it’s actually very common. My boyfriend Michael (Red 1 Serpent) visited me all the time after he died in 2016 and only occasionally now at my request because I’m trying to find a new boyfriend, maybe. He is a jealous type and needs to be at a distance.

If you want your family member or friend-mate around, it’s no problem. But sometimes people are haunted or don’t want them around, maybe because they have karma they don’t want to deal with. At that point, you have the right to command them to leave and they are no longer allowed to bother you in 3D. But if you have karma with them you will have to either deal with them in the next density or come back to earth to keep going through your karma. Death is not a “get out of jail free” card. When you die you’re just ending your karmic journey here for now.

It got me thinking about the possibility that our lives here on earth, in this space-time suit we call a body is a type of ghost. We are in a holographic matrix after all so none of this is real. It’s real in time but time is ultimately an illusion as well and functions so that we can manifest and spiritually keep learning our lessons. What manifests the body is DNA which is the karma-dharma lemniscate ∞, theme, and analog. We are holographic projections into this matrix. That is pretty much a ghost. It might be helpful to view ourselves and everyone around us as ghosts of their real selves so that we don’t get so caught up in what others do and say so much.

What are we really, walking around in this life appearing to be human? An eternal, timeless soul with many lifetimes under our belt. But ultimately we are all children of God with our karma and dharma and no one is better than another and no one gets off scot-free. How would this perspective change how we interact, how we see and treat one another knowing that death is not our destiny, physical death is a choice. Nor is it “the end”.

Saturday-It Doesn’t Hurt to Nurture and Bond in a Relationship


As long as you don’t lose your own life, what you value and need and become co-dependent, it’s all good. If someone loves you they are going to want you to center in your own self, not give it up and feed it to them for their sustenanace. Run from the needy vampiring energy. It goes into shadow for both parties. It could just be facing karma too but it is possible to jump to dharma and let it go. Just be a glutton for love and goodness not punishment. PIVOT!

Remember tone 4 and Blue Storm kin. 💙 All of the amino acids are evolving daily in us. It’s just that on some days specific ones are highlighted.

Today is electric tone 3 and this takes us out of Sun in Scorpio and the full moon in Taurus and ACTIVATES the new astronomy alignment. Speaking of tone 4 and Blue Storm, they are both pulsing tomorrow on Sun in Sagittarius for its first day. Get your quiver and arrow ready to focus. And it will be moon in ♊ Gemini and White 4 Wind. Let the TALKING begin. Synchronicity.

Body Holon

Relationships and their body are changing for many people.
  • Theme is Red 3 Electric Dragon; memory and ancestry, karma
  • Analog is White 3 Electric Mirror; meditation and reflection
  • Guide Power is Red 3 Electric Serpent; physical passion, grounding
  • Antipode is Blue 3 Electric 🐒 Monkey; Magic
  • Hidden Wisdom is Yellow 11 Spectral Sun; dissolving enlightenment, birth, letting out the old and bringing in the new dharma.
  • 5gforce is
  • Planets mediating are Pluto, Maldek, Venus, and The Sun

Astronomy

  • The Moon spends the day in connected, observant Gemini.
  • However, Mercury forms a sesquiquadrate aspect to Chiron and a square to Jupiter which rules Sagittarius, pointing to some issues with perception. We enter Sag tomorrow.
  • Later today we find it easier to focus and strategize with Mercury and Pluto heading into harmony. Symchronicity with the Tzolkin alignment.

Essay; No Possession in Relationships


just because someone desires you.

I guess the saying above could apply to women and to men but women are quite a bit more pre-meditated in choosing which men to talk to and then sleep with. Our lust does not control our rationality, much to men’s dismay. Sometimes mine does but I’m working on curbing it now that I realize men fall in love easier than women do, even it’s just our breasts they’re in love with.

This is especially the case for women of reproductive age. So mostly, this applies to women. Just because a man desires you doesn’t mean he values you. For men, this could say, “Just because a woman likes to talk to you doesn’t mean she values you or loves you.” But if SHE SAID she loves she does. We don’t say that lightly.

If people are not possessions then relationships with them cannot be assessed like an insurance adjustor would assess the damage done to a car.

Loss Adjuster Inspecting Car Involved In Accident
I’m following up on my previous post “Bonding Instead of Possession”, and suggesting a compromise between men’s dualistic approach to relationships which is either promiscuity or possession. Analyzing a relationship is not akin to being an insurance claims adjustor. It’s a matter for your HEARTSET to assess the situation which entails your feelings and then use intuition since feelings only lead to intuition which is the higher mind. No one is called to act on, indulge, or hold on to their feelings. Feelings are supposed to lead to the movement of Mind and Heart so we can make informed choices. You can’t leave out Heart or Mind or it will fail. That’s the whole point of knowing your feelings and it’s not minor. The Intuition leads to the higher mind and the rational leads to the lower mind. One is fast, one is slow. I didn’t figure that out, the scientists did, nor do I really like the situation but that seems to be the way the brain is laid out for now until we evolve differently.

Promiscuity or possession is an all or nothing approach, a decisive approach that actually is emotional, even passionate based on physical lust, need, and desire, not love.

Why is it considered normal and acceptable for men to not want a relationship but not women? Many women, including me, like being single, but I like friendship, love, and sex but I don’t want to be in a relationship. I like my absolute freedom and need it. I also like monogamy but only if the man doesn’t go overboard.

Can a man process all of that and accept that I don’t want to possess or control him and he can’t possess or control me?

So far, no.

Now in 2025, I think there are unique circumstances where two people love each other and want to be together. You have to go with the flow. But if STAFF and FAMILY or money are interfering with two people being together that is PURE EVIL. The universe needs to intercede and synchronicity needs to control the situation. There is no stronger magnet on earth than love.💞

I Haven’t Written about Intimacy in Awhile


…because a panicdemic isn’t exactly an inspiration to intimacy.

IT’S A DIFFERENT WORLD SINCE I LAST REALLY POSTED ANYTHING!

I’m just going to say it. If you’re well and have faith in your immune system, know that you make antibodies as everyone does and feel like you can walk above the Fear Fray, HAVE SEX!

I’m above the fear fray. I’m incapable of following the crowd on this. Literally. I watch NO T.V. Because I know better. Being holistic, I know the facts about the body and take care of myself.  I don’t rely on doctors and their pills. I use herbs and take Chinese anti-viral herbs that make it impossible for a virus to go into your lungs. YEAH, THEY SHOULD BE ALL OVER THE HOSPITAL but there is no way Big Pharma would let Chinese herbs that work in there, even if they can save lives.

Being who I am, I know how to pretend I’m complying and then do the little actions and use the little wipes, hand washing like it’s a religion, social distancing, blah, blah, blah that everyone thinks is SO powerful and make my office smell like Lysol which is actually not good for us. I actually do it, probably more than the fear people because I coddle the fearful people too much. I feel sorry for them having no faith whatsoever in their bodies.

It’s because they THINK THAT and FEEL that that gives it power. I feel it already without the little anti-microbial everything. Someone do me and people LIKE ME a favor and have a better understanding of how your body really works and some FAITH in your very powerful immune system. We never get that satisfaction. We just get to see darting eyes behind and mask and FEAR oozing out of every part of your body while you walk really fast from the grocery store. Do you know how TOXIC that is?

This whole thing is killing intimacy of any kind and sex and I find it very, very sinister to the social fabric of humanity. We’ll see if they really intend to open up normal movement again. Just start doing it yourself quietly. If everyone does without making a fuss then who is going to stop them?

What is intimate is the virus itself. It’s microscopic folks. It’s smaller than any moisture cells that come out of your mouth during a sneeze. The mask everyone is making like Betsy Ross made the flag aren’t helping with anything. If you sneeze, the microscopic virus goes right through the fibers of the mask. Outside particles in the air go right into and through because they’re microscopic. The only mask that stops it is N95 and I have one. A healthcare worker gave it to me so I could work on her. It’s asphyxiating meaning it works to keep out the virus. Oxygen can barely get in which means nothing in the air is getting in. That’s how you know it works. And you could faint wearing it. So the masks that do work don’t allow you to breathe. There’s a quick death. The whole mask issue is one of psychological false sense of security. If your vibe is full of fear you weaken your immune system.

Anyway…your mind (thoughts and feelings) control your immune system. There are all kinds of nasties, every day of your life in your body that if multiplied, would kill you quickly. Mammals are full of destructive microbes! All the time! We don’t die because our immune systems are 1 million years old of brilliant and are on vigilant guard and go after anything that gets out of line UNLESS, we tell them to stand down and let the killing begin. Meaning, you, the host, feel weak and sad and want to die. That doesn’t usually happen but this would be a good time to split if you felt like it. No one would question you, no hassle. The virus would be blamed, you would not be.

I feel the lack of intimacy and socializing is worse for people than the virus. We are meant to be together. This distrust of our bodies and the immune system is nonsense. That said if you feel weak and full of fear you should stay home because your vibe is toxic. Maybe not just now but all the time. You’ve got some meditating to do and choices to make about your relationship with Life.

Intimacy; Panicdemic


…because a panicdemic isn’t exactly an inspiration to intimacy.

IT’S A DIFFERENT WORLD SINCE I LAST REALLY POSTED ANYTHING!

I’m just going to say it. If you’re well and have faith in your immune system, know that you make antibodies as everyone does and feel like you can walk above the Fear Fray, HAVE SEX!

I’m above the fear fray. I’m incapable of following the crowd on this. Literally. I watch NO T.V. Because I know better. Being holistic, I know the facts about the body and take care of myself.  I don’t rely on doctors and their pills. I use herbs and take Chinese anti-viral herbs that make it impossible for a virus to go into your lungs. YEAH, THEY SHOULD BE ALL OVER THE HOSPITAL but there is no way Big Pharma would let Chinese herbs that work in there, even if they can save lives.

Being who I am, I know how to pretend I’m complying and then do the little actions and use the little wipes, hand washing like it’s a religion, social distancing, blah, blah, blah that everyone thinks is SO powerful and make my office smell like Lysol which is actually not good for us. I actually do it, probably more than the fear people because I coddle the fearful people too much. I feel sorry for them having no faith whatsoever in their bodies.

It’s because they THINK THAT and FEEL that that gives it power. I feel it already without the little anti-microbial everything. Someone do me and people LIKE ME a favor and have a better understanding of how your body really works and some FAITH in your very powerful immune system. We never get that satisfaction. We just get to see darting eyes behind and mask and FEAR oozing out of every part of your body while you walk really fast from the grocery store. Do you know how TOXIC that is?

This whole thing is killing intimacy of any kind and sex and I find it very, very sinister to the social fabric of humanity. We’ll see if they really intend to open up normal movement again. Just start doing it yourself quietly. If everyone does without making a fuss then who is going to stop them?

What is intimate is the virus itself. It’s microscopic folks. It’s smaller than any moisture cells that come out of your mouth during a sneeze. The mask everyone is making like Betsy Ross made the flag aren’t helping with anything. If you sneeze, the microscopic virus goes right through the fibers of the mask. Outside particles in the air go right into and through because they’re microscopic. The only mask that stops it is N95 and I have one. A healthcare worker gave it to me so I could work on her. It’s asphyxiating meaning it works to keep out the virus. Oxygen can barely get in which means nothing in the air is getting in. That’s how you know it works. And you could faint wearing it. So the masks that do work don’t allow you to breathe. There’s a quick death. The whole mask issue is one of psychological false sense of security. If your vibe is full of fear you weaken your immune system.

Anyway…your mind (thoughts and feelings) control your immune system. There are all kinds of nasties, every day of your life in your body that if multiplied, would kill you quickly. Mammals are full of destructive microbes! All the time! We don’t die because our immune systems are 1 million years old of brilliant and are on vigilant guard and go after anything that gets out of line UNLESS, we tell them to stand down and let the killing begin. Meaning, you, the host, feel weak and sad and want to die. That doesn’t usually happen but this would be a good time to split if you felt like it. No one would question you, no hassle. The virus would be blamed, you would not be.

I feel the lack of intimacy and socializing is worse for people than the virus. We are meant to be together. This distrust of our bodies and the immune system is nonsense. That said if you feel weak and full of fear you should stay home because your vibe is toxic. Maybe not just now but all the time. You’ve got some meditating to do and choices to make about your relationship with Life.

Intimacy; Familiar Lover


aerial photography of water beside forest during golden hour
Photo by Sindre Strøm on Pexels.com

It’s so much easier to melt into your warm flesh because I know how you smell and your voice.

It’s just the nurturing comfort I need right now but you won’t kiss me as you did before.

Something is distinctly unfamiliar…

You feel different in my bed, humidity on a dry, cold, windy day when the sun is loitering in the sky rather than actually warming things up.

You’re a woke soul, a man not a boy with your dreams doing cartwheels.

It’s not love, it’s familiarity which so many humans mistakenly wrap their arms around in tribal joy.

No doubt, what is familiar today will change tomorrow and that intrepid fact is forever familiar all around us.

Intimacy; Gray Area Between Relationship and Hookup?


I wrote this in 2020. I am not the same in 2025.-L.T.

I have to admit, if I’m not looking for a committed relationship with a man I don’t pay much attention to personally. I’m looking for an attraction for sex or a lover. Women are no different from men sometimes.

Having touch and sex is a health issue. We all need it! I’m not throwing guilt in there but I do notice that the emotional detachment with a man turns me off no matter how hot he is. I appreciate the beauty of a man though just as much as men do with women. Yet, it’s not even close to being like love.

Things get tricky when a man is your friend and you have things in common and have known each other for a while. If he has a disposable hookup habit with women who are not friends how will he handle sex with a friend? Another notch only meaner? He gets double points for disposing of a female friend? Ultimately, she’s only a woman and nothing stops him from devouring as much as he can for free.

Being women, we do have the ability to make a man fall in love with us by loving him from the heart, talking to him, and being irresistibly sexy even while we’re free spirits and have no intention of having him on a hook. Personally, I have no desire for a man around just as I have no pet in the house. I’m busy with the work I love. But I’m not sure I want the burden of a man in love with me to weigh me down.

I think you have to be ready to lose the friendship on the sex altar. It happens on the attraction and flirting altar too. That just ended one of my friendships. We didn’t even have sex but we may as well have because the energy and affection were there…then it left. It was his doing because he decided to hook up with someone else much easier to handle, blonder, and more tattooed likely with piercings in all the gross places. Lol. She was his level.

There is a gray area in there somewhere. I just haven’t found the sweet spot. Que sera sera.

Intimacy; dogs or gods?


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Who could resist that adorable puppy coming running toward them for attention? There ya have it. That’s the curse women are under with cute men. I’ve interviewed women and they agree. When a man is really cute he’s very hard to resist!  It’s terrible. We just want to love em’ up and feed them, make up a dog house, let them stay over, oh geez, on and on and it does us in. There goes the peace we need as females and space to take care of ourselves and get our work done. We really need to learn to resist this instinct!

True to form, I learn something every day about women and men, our basic natures, and realize there were many things I was not taught growing up. Can you relate to that moment someone close to you said something off the cuff and it stuck in your head? That was the case for me with my second husband Dave (my son’s father). He was walking up the stairs one day after a normal conversation and he looked at me and said “We’re like dogs. Men are like dogs” Some men are fancy dogs, or rich dogs, or bad dogs, or good dogs, or work dogs. Some are both! Some are crazy dogs or funny dogs, sexy dogs or sweet dogs. You get the idea.

If you read my blog regularly you can guess I looked at him with disbelief and derision. In no way was I going to accept that as an excuse for his behavior. Nor had I ever entertained a career in dog training or dog breeding by letting a man live with me. I’ve never even owned a dog and don’t want to because I’m consistently told that they are like having another child! Children need to be patted on the head and encouraged, praised with kind words, fed, loved, and kept warm and more. I already did that with my son. I don’t need to do that with a man or a dog. It’s a turn off to me to think about treating a man like a dog. But now I’ve been mulling it over.

I can say with assurance that I have always worked toward and considered myself a goddess as opposed to dog food. In no way have I ever fed my body to a lusty man to be consumed because he’s hungry. I think most women do though! They accept it! It does feel good and women most definitely have the instinct to feed men but it will kill your self-esteem and is not emotionally good for women.

On the other hand, men love those superheroes and I know for a fact they have a rich fantasy life about what great warrior heroes and magical powers they might possess. There’s nothing a man loves more than seeing a woman look at him sincerely as her hero. It’s not that a woman wants or needs to be rescued. We really don’t. But sometimes we definitely do need protection in a very rough world. Sure,  IronMan to the scene! I’m good with that and Robert Downey Jr. is a major hottie. A man who is a god can be recognized as truly wanting and respecting an intelligent woman who takes care of her own business. He takes care of his own business so he isn’t bothering her like a little kid and her in the role of his mother. No thanks. He also takes care of his health and teeth so he pleases her physically and of course, she does the same. Most of all, he likes himself and has matured to the point of being able to listen and care about how a woman feels.

So I can honestly say I’ve decided I am looking for a man who knows he really IS a god just as I know I am a goddess. It’s an awareness of the divinity within us; one with us and is the goal of the Spiritual movement. You won’t find it in religion and I’m guessing they find it heretical. Spiritual people are not saying we are God. We’re saying that our identity is an ascending child of God which is a god or goddess. We’re working on ourselves to get better every day. Every single human being has this in them; in our blood which is our QI, or consciousness. I’m not the goddess I want to be or know I can be yet but I’m almost there and it has nothing to do with age. That will be the subject of another blog.

 

Intimacy; How Do We Move From Lust to Love?


Do you know the difference between lust and love? I’ll go with the hard one first; Love. Love is when you want to take time to really know someone, to care about how they feel, what they need and what makes them tick. You want to be their friend. Friendship is the basis of all lasting, lusty, good relationships. It takes time and maturity to grow.

Lust is everything else. Anything that’s not love is lust. Lust is the emotion behind most human interactions and has the face of greed, trolling on Facebook, offloading on strangers and the like. If you have no foundation of care and face-to-face friendship (not digital only) with someone you are indulging in instant gratification lust and there is nothing loving about it.

This issue has been challenging for me. I’m a very passionate, physical woman and have no problem lusting after men who are very attractive to me. I don’t act on it; it’s just fun. My personality and values are all about love. There isn’t really any other material thing I lust after; unless I’m really hungry. then I lust after food.

That’s a good segue because food hunger is almost exactly like sex hunger in the brain. And notice how many people overeat when they just need some love, affection, and sex. We’re looking for a serotonin spike and some other juicy brain chemicals that make us happy. I know I am. Food doesn’t come close to making me happy the way intimacy and love does. I don’t even like bothering to stop and fix food because I’m busy with my projects, writing, chores, things I love to do! Why do I have to stop and eat? I’ve always been like that. I’m not terribly fond of slowing down.

Now we see a problem here; denial of human need when you know it’s not likely to be easily fulfilled! I’ve been married three times to great men and had several great boyfriends. I’m still not satisfied. They weren’t perfect or didn’t satisfy me the way I really want to be. They didn’t make my brain and body explode with orgasmic happiness, although my last mate Michael came close. He loved me…really, really loved me and I loved him. Love is the sexiest thing going. Then he died suddenly. That’s not helping the situation. Love is definitely tragic.

It makes me wonder about eating disorders. If you take that denial of the need for love, warmth, and affection far enough it would make your brain or specifically, the hypothalamus gland stops craving food. So the emotion of lust would be good at this point versus the emotions around deprivation.

I’m not into deprivation at all but I am sorely afraid of loving a man, pulling him to me, and pushing him away because I need to be alone with my ideas, my mind, my life, my work, and my writing. I don’t want to hurt him. There has to be some intimacy and some time shared with your loved one or they will go away. I hate that.

broken_heart1I think I’ve stayed in lust mode in my brain because I’ve lost too many people I’ve loved. It’s like a car idling. My life isn’t idling but my feelings about bonding in a relationship are definitely idling. Maybe I’m stuck in lust gear because it’s emotionally safer. There is no risk of having your heart ripped out and stomped on the floor by death and life itself if you don’t go into love gear and really start driving.

Intimacy; Men are Dramatic in Action and Women are Dramatic in their Speech


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How many bazillion times have you heard a guy say “No drama!”? They act like they give women no drama. Men are over the top!!! Men get emotional physically and sometimes verbally. Their actions are too dramatic. That’s the testosterone and they put WOMEN through the wringer not being able to calm down their testosterone or my favorite, being so confused about how to relate what they want to us that they send dual-minded, conflicting signals. A lot of women think they’re lying but half of the time I think they just don’t know what to say…literally.

Women are more dramatic in expressing themselves verbally. Women are actually brilliant at expressing themselves verbally and men are FOREVER telling us to be quiet and stop being so dramatic. I fucking hate it nor will I obey. I find men and women to be equally expressive emotionally but in these two different modes.

Next time a man says to you, “Cut the drama” when you’re speaking and expressing your feelings, bring down the curtain on his ass regarding how his actions are overdramatic expressing HIS feelings. He can “cut the drama” too. Sheesh!

Men are Dramatic in Action and Women are Dramatic in their Speech


you've got to be kidding me

How many bazillion times have you heard a guy say “No drama!”? They act like they give women no drama. Men are over the top!!! Men get emotional physically and sometimes verbally. Their actions are too dramatic. That’s the testosterone and they put WOMEN through the wringer not being able to calm down their testosterone or my favorite, being so confused about how to relate what they want to us that they send dual-minded, conflicting signals. A lot of women think they’re lying but half of the time I think they just don’t know what to say…literally.

Women are more dramatic in expressing themselves verbally. Women are actually brilliant at expressing themselves verbally and men are FOREVER telling us to be quiet and stop being so dramatic. I fucking hate it nor will I obey. I find men and women to be equally expressive emotionally but in these two different modes.

Next time a man says to you, “Cut the drama” when you’re speaking and expressing your feelings, bring down the curtain on his ass regarding how his actions are overdramatic expressing HIS feelings. He can “cut the drama” too. Sheesh!