Category: Relationships

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Essay: Can She Be a Human Being?


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She is either the big, bad, controlling monster because she’s a strong, intelligent woman or a little blonde Cinderella princess needing the glass slipper put on her foot? Too many men are passive-aggressive about women I suppose because they don’t understand us. We’re neither of those two ends on a linear spectrum. I wonder if men are capable of interpreting relational ideas past duality?

Relating is more complicated than that. Don’t give me the “Men are simple creatures that just need a dog”, or all we need is sex and food” crap. If you’re going to inflate your ego to the point of feigning vast intelligence, all the top jobs, and Nobel Peace Prizes, all the power in public and most of the money, and fire women from their position who won’t hook-up with you, then you need to uplevel your brains to friendship with the woman you’re f……. Then we can share power in public.

Let’s face it. We live in a vampire whored society where everyone is brainwashed to give over their mind and body to marriage, family, church, employer, and state for some money crumbs and the fat cats keep the rest and wait for us to die. Then the funeral homes and cemetery and the rest of the death industry clean up after that. It affects how women and men relate to one another to be sure because we end up in survival mode not thrive mode. That’s not a garden of intimacy.

I’m not and most women are not a misandrist. I just don’t want to have to train my mate the way I train my child. It’s an insult to men and women. We just want the species to survive on the planet. We’re the ones that make, birth, and love the species, and you guys have had your chance for the last 10,000 years. This madness has to stop.

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Essay; St. Valentine BeHeaded


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TRUTH…

Here’s some romance for you…

Valentine’s Day is actually a Catholic Feast day of St. Valentine. He was a Catholic martyr of course, and as it says below, he was beaten with clubs, beheaded, buried at night in secret, and dug up by his followers.

His crime was voicing his dissent at the Romans because the young men were forbidden to marry young women. Instead, the Romans made it a priority that young men become soldiers for their wars. You know, “Make war, not love”, the opposite of what the hippies said in the ’60s, “Make love not war.”

Well, sex, reproduction, gender balance, honoring nature, loving and taking care of the body, those are women’s values. The Romans were busy making sure patriarchy, the rule of men globally came to the fore.

Working-class men became fodder for capitalism, the military-industrial complex, materialism, the draft, and war. Ya know…mach glory men don’t cry, here take your beatings. WOMEN NEVER AGREED TO THAT TREATMENT OF MEN. The institutions of church and state did that to men to give you transcendent power, not us. The Romans started it and it continues today in modern society. Ah, the glory of sacrifice and blood.

If men had been allowed to fulfill their role by nature in balance with women they would have been taught and allowed to love women, love, and care for their own body, value being a father, learn the values of monogamy, not polyamory, and find balance between the work they loved and the family they loved. Men have been used and mistrated by patriarchy as much as women have. You probably won’t get a feminist to admit that which is why I am not one. Please note that.

That’s all been ripped apart for men and by association, women.

Men are used as much by the system that oppresses them as they oppress women. The system uses men to keep women down and I doubt the men even know it.

The historical proof of this is in the life of St. Valentine who advocated for Love between women and men and was killed for it by The State.

Patriarchy has brainwashed men into believing that they are not to love women, not to FEEL anything, that women aren’t to be trusted, and their highest destiny is in aligning with the powers of church and state. The truth is, we’re called and made to love each other. Roman society killed that.

The birth of misogyny and the failure of gender equity is what Valentine’s Day is really commemorating and it is as Okoto Enigma says, “An apocalypse of Love”.

Women continue to directly suffer for it by lack of loving bond in sex with men if we’re straight. Also, not being paid the same amount of money for the same quality of work. So not only are we deprived physically and emotionally but monetarily as well.

Thanks for trying St. Valentine but the arrow is still stuck in our hearts.

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Essay; You Have to Reach Out to Him First


zooskZoosk again. *Sigh*. I had a male friend say, “I think currently, men want to you to reach out to them first.” “Oh really? It wasn’t like that when I was younger. So that’s changed over time.”

Ok. Not a problem. I know who appeals to me and who doesn’t so that’s what I did. My profile and is nice and honest. I’m not negative at all. My pictures are pretty. I get a ton of views and really troll-like men sending hearts but a few good ones. I respond. When I get chatted up by a decent, clean, intelligent guy, I’m happy to meet for coffee as long as he doesn’t have a gigantic cross hanging around his neck. I’m only interested in spiritual guys; no religion. Religion is just an emotional cover for addiction. The maturity timeline goes like this; active addict believes nothing and resents his family, then religious and sober forgave his family, then sober, self-defined, independent from family and spiritual. It is extremely rare to find a male at the 3rd level but that’s all I have time for.

Now coffee is barely happening. They don’t show up or follow-up to set it up!!!

It’s just coffee!! What is so serious and weird for a guy emotionally about coffee? I’m mystified. There is no fantasy here. We’re just meeting each other. I’ve heard that men are so insecure that they “hope” you’ll like them. Well, how can I know if you don’t show up for an agreed-upon date?

I guess their egos are so fragile that the prospect of getting shot down by a beautiful, intelligent woman is too scary? Wow. There is no woman I know who has so much ego invested in a hot, smart guy that she’d lay her self-esteem on the line for his approval or non-approval. Why are you guys so down on yourselves?

Can you just relax? I think they think women like me are monsters. I really don’t know.

Thank God I’m in touch with my Twin Flame but he’s sitting on his hands too…or something, as though he has a local supply of what he needs which apparently isn’t love; just security and habitual “male activity”. Typical. They never want love because they don’t know what it is. I know…I’m cynical or maybe just realistic.

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Essay: Is Reductionist, Axiomatic Science A Masculine Disorder?


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“Science is based on the professional creation and certification of knowledge which is tied to powerful interest groups, notably the state, corporations and the scientific profession itself. Patriarchy is based on male control of dominant social structures and the exclusion of women from positions of power through means such as direct discrimination, socialization and the gender division of labor.

Patriarchy within the scientific community is manifested through male control of elite positions and various exclusionary devices. The scientific method incorporates masculine features such as the objectification of nature. Scientific knowledge is masculine in its neglect of women’s experience and its adoption of paradigms built on assumptions of competition and hierarchy.”-Jill Bowling and Brian Martin, Ph.D.

I posted this in 2018. Today is July 1, 2026 and I think the A.I. prophets have made the situation worse. And now women are denigrated with exowombs, as though a child’s soul can grow just fine being disconnected from its mother. It’s the height of misogyny and evil and would end the human species. Thanks AI. You truly need to be aligned with True Time before it’s too late.

Here is another article from an expert! It’s longer but VERY interesting.

Science: a masculine disorder

I woke up this morning, after being hijacked by “a friend” on a thread yesterday and then territorially denigrated in the patriarchal tradition, pondering the question; “Is the scientific method itself horse-and-buggy, materialist, patriarchal B.S.? Is this possible? Before today, I pretty much supported it, although its methodology seemed very simplistic to me and not at all holistic. Was I the only one wondering if this might be true?

I wonder this because as a fifty-four-year-old female who is trained in science as far as needed in licensed health care, my intuition is as consistent and rational as anything I see or feel in this material world. I also listen to it. This phenomenon is mostly ignored, cynically scoffed at, and at best, not understood by most people including my ex-friend who has patently disrespected my intuitive read of the Mayan Harmonic for months now. He just now told me how much better he is than me which kind of says it all. It means he’s not.

My patients have confirmed my hands-on intuition with their bodies for fifteen years so it’s like breathing to me now. I put my hands on someone and I can feel everything that’s going on. Then they confirm it verbally after I tell them what I sense. Then I treat on the manifested body and they feel it again. I don’t feel it physically initially; I sense the energetic cause of the physical manifestation which is the cause of all illness; thoughts and feelings or vibrations then I assess and treat tactilely.

My ex-friend, who fancies himself a scientist, knows nothing to very little about the body and doesn’t even work in the sciences. I’ve made my living in healthcare for seventeen years. There are lessons to be learned by all. For instance, in the last week I’ve learned two lessons:

  1. It is unwise to only see the good in people when their shadow is blasting you in the face. They operate from cynicism and usage; not love, and you can feel it.
  2. Many men do not have intuition on their radar and if they do, they subjugate it for the purposes of patriarchal power (money and control) or addiction. They view intuition as feminized or sub-cultural which would weaken their position in society. Other cultures can follow their intuition but patriarchal men from all cultures do not. They only use and objectify women sexually and poor people economically, no matter how nice they may seem and politically correct with their rhetoric. It’s fake. It takes an experienced and trained eye and ear to see it. The first tip-off is, they never ask you how you are, and if they do, it’s not genuine. You can feel it.

“Long-term structural change in science must be predicated on changing the relations between men and women.”

This applies across cultures, all over the world. The real issue of disparity on the planet is between women and men all over the world and the rest of the issues follow. Women are still treated in a barbaric manner, especially the child bride phenomenon.

“Complementing this approach is that taken by those specifically focusing on the reasons why there are not more women involved in the sciences. Several writers have examined science education, particularly looking at the reasons why girls leave science in their school years. Following the observations that boys get more teacher attention and girls have less confidence in their ability, in Australia, there have been some experiments with all-girls science and mathematics classes.

There has also been an analysis of the way in which science is constructed to reflect male values and suggestions about how to create a different sort of science. Arditti, for instance, argues for a feminist perspective which “would re-introduce and re-legitimize the intuitive approach”.

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Essay: “I’m Sorry”


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What most people mean when they say I’m sorry is, “I’m sorry you caught me doing something I should not have and it hurt you.” They’re sorry they got caught. If you don’t get caught or no one is bothered by your action, you’re not hurting anyone, right?

My first husband used to say, “Just don’t do it again.” Of course, a person is going to do it again. I did. In my case, when I’m mad I tend to say something hurtful. People always do what they feel they need to do, want to do or feel compelled to do no matter what anyone else says.

When a friend or someone I’m close to is saying they’re sorry, I believe them in that I do believe they don’t want to hurt me. But that doesn’t mean they’ll adjust their behavior “for me” nor should I expect it. Most people won’t.

Our first loyalty is to ourselves emotionally and I guess that’s as it should be. Whether or not the person close to them can detach from the things that repeatedly hurt them or not is the question. After all, it’s not that we intentionally hurt others, it’s that others let themselves feel hurt by us. They don’t have to. They can stay detached from certain behaviors and not let themselves be hurt by it. How we feel is in OUR hands, not others. If someone tries to tell you otherwise just ignore them.

Check how you feel in your heart when someone close to you hurts your feelings. That is using your intuition. If you just have a new insight into their personality and don’t judge them or diss them, then you love them.

Your intuition just helped you pivot away from letting their personal issue hurt you and you stayed in your own space. Good for you. Self-love is intact and loving them is intact. But you also have a new heads up to their weak point and can detach next time.

When they apologized did you receive their apology and forgive or let it go? Or did it scare you and now you hold a grudge? If you went into fear and resentment that is not loving.

You are using your intuition in that situation too. Unless you move the feeling to your intuition you won’t be able to assess the relationship accurately. That’s why it’s important for both men and women to be in touch with how they feel in their body.

There are levels of apology that correlate with Platonic Love relationships. The Platonic Love blog is a few posts back. I feel humans are called to love at all times; Agape, Philia, etc. So even in professional-client relationships, it’s important to apologize and forgive. Love at all times will change the world.

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You can’t buy people’s minds/ideas with any integrity


This is a huge value for me because of universal free will and freedom of speech. My ancestors wrote the first version of the 1st amendment so I get to say this without blowback.

I know that legally you can license someone’s patent and use it to get filthy rich yourself but the inventors name should ETERNALLY stay on the idea no matter what the law says. Ideas are like children. You can’t sell them with any integrity. You can sell a PATENT or license it though to anyone in the world. The IDEA was still theirs.

It’s awesome to fund or invest capital in an excellent idea but that DOES NOT MEAN YOU OWN IT or that you can disrespect the inventor and throw them to the curb. I feel strongly about this in terms of being a good person. If you have done this you need to fix it. Apologize to the inventor and make it right or you have more karma. Then make the truth public.

We should waste as little time as possible thinking about or respecting people who do not think about or respect us. If you have figured out by behavior that you are just a transactional agenda item that never fits into a personal scheme, move on.

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Essay: There are no men left in the house. Peace. This was written in 2018


My followers keep clicking on this one, written in 2018. I’m thriving living alone. But I’m not alone. I see patients all the time. It is now June 27, 2026.

t has finally happened after twenty years. I live alone in my house, no men, no noise, no demands for food or rides, this or that, “Mom can you help me!” “C’ mon, let’s go to the store”.

My son’s dad died three years ago in 2015…the last time I saw him was Christmas Day. Five days later, he was gone. I barely eeked out a smile as I said goodbye. He had been pretty emotionally abusive to me, frustrated his whole life, not knowing he was high-functioning autistic savant until three months beforehand. My efforts at solace could not change his brain, but he was a music legend on the pile of my torn apart heart. In addition, my son did not see his father respect me; the fruits of patriarchy.

Three months later my fiance died. I had fifteen minutes notice. We loved each other and did everything for each other. It was not to be. He had not taken care of his body and it caught up with him.

Now four days ago, my nineteen-year-old son went out the door with his backpack and no notice to start his hero’s adventure quest which is his birthright. Good for him but he could have warned me! It reminded me of the sudden death of my fiance.

On his way out, of course, he was mad at me and said I was so selfish. I suppose because I take care of myself and being a female, that is unacceptable and taboo. I wonder if he thought of the effect of his words on me, skipping them like stones across the water? Doubtful at his age. I’ve been called selfish alot because I’m independent and have my own life that I share with a few people who don’t ask me to stop loving physics and time science just because I’m a girl.

But the men walk out quickly and don’t return I’ve learned, to the other side of this world…or town. It doesn’t matter. They’re not with me.

It is so peaceful in this house without a raucous male. Part of me has waited twenty years to take my body back from my partners and my son, and before that, a line of men, but not a long line.

Now I get an adventure quest; a fresh start, the second half of my life, a thriving business, a home, free to do whatever I want and a body with no risk of pregnancy. I haven’t given it all away.

It’s like this secret I have as a fifty-five -year-old who no one would suspect and assumes in our youth worshipping culture, female sacrificing altars around every corner, that I’m all washed up. “Hasn’t that woman been laid flat yet? Well, why not?” (My mother keeps literally asking that as though she’s waiting for me to fall) I SHOULD fall or it doesn’t look good?

“She’s Selfish!” they cry. With a capital “S” not a small “s”. There is the low self and the Higher Self. No. I just don’t believe in aging and atrophy. I don’t follow social programming.

Truth is, I am my own best friend and for the first time in my life, I’m taking care of my body for me and no one else. More and more women are doing it. I’m not alone. We still have work to do and adventure quests to commence. Ridiculous isn’t it.

I feign an attitude and a bird ready to flip until my dying day…because I said so.

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Why does buying something from a company make you family?

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Why is a retail company analogous to a family?

Transactional family love? I suppose that would be the case if your parents taught you that money is love and that business success and profit was the best thing you could achieve in life.

I can’t relate to any of that as far as money or friendship, or how relationships of true caring proceed.

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Essay: There are Twelve Senses, Not Five


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We live on a multidimensional planet. The first five DIMENSIONS are;

  1. Life
  2. Sense
  3. Mind
  4. Time
  5. Galactic force

Each one of those dimensions is inclusive of the one before it.

~Being fully aware of the physical 5 senses awakens your life.

~Being fully aware of the levels of mind or psychic senses awakens the 5 physical senses and your life and your mind. At this point you don’t know you have 12 senses unless you’ve opened chakra 8 above the crown then it would be 13.

~Once all 13 are humming you are fully aware of the movement of time in true time which moves you from subconscious programming (family and society) to conscious choice. Many lightworkers, writers, muses and musicians are humming with the 13 senses.

Society makes fun of us because we don’t have alot of money but we have a high quality of time. I think if we all charged $50.00 for our book of brilliant writing instead of $5.00 we could shoot to the top.

Life perception is 1D. Most people live here. All they see is their own life on this planet and that’s all they believe is real because that’s all their mindset will tell them is real. Within 1D are the five physical life senses whether people use them or not. For the most part, civilization cuts humans off from their natural five senses functioning at their highest level. Thus we find ourselves in the place we’re in now; aware of mostly 1D and oblivious to our effect on the earth and others. About 50% of people are here.

The five natural life senses are;

  1. Sight
  2. Hearing
  3. Smell
  4. Touch
  5. Taste

Those senses or at least one of those senses delivers something that is a reality to most people such as money, car sounds, gasoline smell, their steering wheel, and their McDouble cheeseburger. The natural sense that incorporates all 5 senses is sex which is why 1 and 2D people are easily addicted to the sex act and not interested in relating to a human being spiritually or philosophically.

2D is the sense dimension and some people highly incorporate their natural senses into their analysis of what’s happening. They are very aware of their body and want their body to deliver as much real information to them via the natural senses as possible. These folks tend to be earthy, active, holistic, andenvironmentalist and they care about the quality of information of things entering their body and how much money they make, meaning, their quality of day to day life and how they use their time is not as important as their income or the stuff they have. They are still only in 2D. My intuition tells me about 40% of the planet is here.

3D is the Mind. That includes being mindful and grateful for your own life sense (1D) and your 2D (all of your senses and your body). That puts you in the mindful, 3D camp and what happens is your brain starts humming. You start to THINK about your own life in a self-reflective manner and everything you sense. I would guess that’s only about 10% of the planet that actually thinks about things and has a high intellect worth reading or listening to if they communicate about it. The challenge here is that same 10% is your audience. No one else can relate.

In 3D there are 7 Mind Senses to add to the 5 Life Senses bringing the total to twelve. They are:

  1. 1st chakra or Etheric body
  2. 2nd chakra or Emotional body
  3. 3rd chakra or Mental body
  4. 4th chakra or Astral body
  5. 5th chakra or Etheric template
  6. 6th chakra or Celestial body
  7. 7th chakra or Ketheric template causal body

Once you incorporate awareness and experience of all of your Mind senses or psychic (means mind) senses, you will be using your whole brain. This is when you are ready to exert a Mindset that will change the subconscious habit and not before. Otherwise, what you’re teaching or focusing on will not be high-level intelligence and you’ll be at a faulty setting. Once your whole brain is humming you’ll be in 4D and realize that your Mind is the source of Time travel. When you move your whole Mind or FOCUS, your body and attitude changes and you are moving in Time or time traveling. First, you move your Mind, then your body moves. Kindness and Love are attractive to you as well as the natural sense experiences. These are spiritual virtues, not religious ones. The higher heart awareness happens in 4D.

4D is the odd one. These are the people who live with a physical awareness that we exist in time, not space. Quantum physics has proven that every cell of our body is 99% empty space but I believe that further research will show that it’s time. We are made of spinning Time, not space. We are about 0.2% of people on the planet who are aware of it as we move about in the body. Reiki, tai chi, tai chi chuan, chi kung, and many other meditative techniques put you directly in touch with the flow of qi in your body. Then you can regulate it yourself. Telepathy becomes normal. Meaning, when someone you know, love, or have met keeps entering your mind like a telephone call, you’re picking up their soul signal and likely they are thinking about you as well. Maybe they need to see you or talk to you for some reason. Humans are naturally very telepathic. It’s part of the higher brain. Don’t question this when it happens. It’s normal.

Time has been proven to exist at these Earth dimensions. Someone said to me the other day, “Time isn’t real.” Well, I want to qualify that and say Time is all there is at Earth level.

“All we really have is time and the only thing we can take with us when we leave is the experience.”

Time projects a hologram from infinity and it appears to be space (the visible world) but it is not real. When you get up to the very high dimensions time ceases to exist and we have a new state called Timelessness or Eternity. It’s all good.

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Essay: Moving from Subconscious to Conscious Mind


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Please read this short article. I wrote this post in 2017. Today is 6/26/26.

From the Old Brain to The New Brain

“Some of the scientists who study the brain (neuroscientists, behavioral psychologists, etc.) believe the vagus nerve or spindle neurons that connect the prefrontal cortex (new brain) to the insula (old brain) may be the communication superhighway that links the conscious (new brain) to the subconscious (old brain). The subconscious brain may be using this very superhighway to communicate intuition, gut feelings and insight (aha moments) to the conscious brain.”-Thomas C. Corley

The latest neuroscience is investigating and talking about the “new brain” or the “conscious brain”. Humanity has been sitting in and using the subconscious mind for most of our existence (1 million years). The subconscious mind comes from parents, family, town, local provincial environment. It has totally helped us survive in a tribal world that expects certain behaviors. All of our institutions have grown up around it. It’s a sponge, defines our local reality, and is subjective. There is nothing objective or conscious about the subconscious mind! It pretty much defines brainwashing and most people’s reality on earth!

But in the case of the evolving brain, that’s a good thing. You have to understand and be able to get on with the locals to survive. Consciousness doesn’t happen overnight.
The subconscious mind comes from parents, family, town, local provincial environment. It has totally helped us survive in a tribal world that expects certain behaviors. All of our institutions have grown up around it. It’s a sponge, defines our local reality, and is subjective. There is nothing objective or conscious about the subconscious mind! It pretty much defines brainwashing and most people’s reality on earth!

But in the case of the evolving brain, that’s a good thing. You have to understand and be able to get on with the locals to survive. Consciousness doesn’t happen overnight.

But, as we can see by how pluralistic and expressive all people the world over are becoming and boundaries morphing, we see symptoms of humanity moving into the new brain or the conscious mind. It is just now occurring. Technology linking everyone is sort of the “leg up” here. We are starting to have unity of mind. That will morph too as our reality moves into the conscious mind and we express ourselves as individuals who are inter-dependent.

Technology linking everyone is sort of the “leg up” here. We are starting to have unity of mind. That will morph too as our reality moves into the conscious mind and we express ourselves as individuals who are inter-dependent.

Many that have been working in the holistic, spirituality, or paradigm shift movement have predicted this change since the 1970s, and have been experiencing events that are indicative of moving INTUITION in particular from the subconscious mind to living and manifesting in the conscious mind. The hippies started it. Most of my adult life (35 years from ages 20-54) has been defined by using my intuition IN my conscious mind and pushing my subconscious mind to the background. That is not usual but that’s what I did. The proof is in my new book “Healer”. There is no way I would have been able to overstep subconsciously created, reality-based events that were foisted on me if I was not residing in my conscious mind. The Universe had my back and I was cared for.

Most of my adult life (35 years from ages 20-54) has been defined by using my intuition IN my conscious mind and pushing my subconscious mind to the background. That is not usual but that’s what I did. The proof is in my new book “Healer”. There is no way I would have been able to overstep subconsciously created, reality-based events that were foisted on me if I was not residing in my conscious mind. The Universe had my back and I was cared for.

While it may be true that all thoughts originate in the provincial subconscious mind, those of us that have not accepted our upbringing as the totality of reality, didn’t like or agree with our upbringing, or felt our upbringing fell far short of real love, want to move quickly into our conscious brain, or “new brain” because we’re happier and feel more in charge of setting our destiny.

Intuition “up”

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Essay: Transactional vs. Personal in relationships


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I just thought of a new one. Fake personal that is really transactional. People who know they need to be more personal and authentic but have no skill in it bc their whole lives have been transactional.

The “Time is Money” materialist value system thinking has taken over American relationships of every kind. Relationships that should be personal become useage transactional and relationships that should be business transactional become usage personal to scam sex, money, or babies. Criminals layer the two. The root cause is a dysfunctional past with parents that you haven’t processed.

How we use money is at issue here. How do you personally use money? I use it to live, to pay bills, and to have enough healthy food to eat. I have no extra and would only need a bit more for a nest egg. I don’t want a pile of money because the government takes too much and throws it down an illegal rat hole. I’m not doing it. I work hard and really well for the little I have.

I never use money over others as personal power in an intimate, friendship, or family relationship. The love of money is the root of all evil, but not money itself which we have to have to live. Just don’t LOVE it.

I think it’s wrong and I don’t do things that I know are wrong unlike banks, and rich people who love money as power. Not all rich people do though. Same with lawsuits. You should resolve differences in personal relationships out of court where there is no money. Those types of relationships should never be turned into JUST A TRANSACTION.

My small business is transactional. Professional services should always be just impersonal transactions. Yet in America, business people fake care about you or talk to you like you are family. They get personal but it’s superficial. You don’t know me and I don’t know you. Don’t pretend like you do.

The confusion in healthcare, and not just for me, is we care about our patients. All of us. White coat and holistic. But we are PAID to care. It is our job. It is possible to make caring a transactional job when it comes easily to a person to give as a service.

The client or patient who misunderstands that are takers who don’t take care of themselves. I’m sorry, but my care for a patient is never a date or personal. Nor do I ever give that vibe on my deeptissuetherapygr.com site or otherwise. I think it’s confusing for people who have never had anyone love them. That is rampant in our society and tragic.

I think bartenders get the therapist carer thing too but they are just transactional also. Humans lack boundaries in our country.

Whenever there is money involved between two people, be clear on whether it’s personal or transactional and don’t use it as though time is money. It absolutely IS NOT money, nor is time a currency. TIME IS LIFE, EVOLUTION AND DNA and that is very…personal.

The Tao says, “Know the personal but keep to the impersonal”. Boundaries and privacy are important.

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Essay: Women and Men Express Love Differently

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I wrote this post in 2018.

I’ve noticed on FB threads and my blogs that women like to hear my thoughts far more than men. Men want women to be quiet. That doesn’t mean we’re going to be but I’m approaching it from a biological brain difference.

Men can only take so much talking from others, except for their own. They love to hear themselves talk. Most women can’t get enough.

Over twenty years I’ve observed the energy and bodies of men and women and found that women need to talk but men don’t usually want to listen or talk. Hopefully, if your man does need to talk, he knows he can talk to you and you’ll be understanding. That should be reciprocated on occasion.

Men literally need our bodies or body language to communicate to us. We need their love (male heart vibe). So, men express love physically, not verbally.

Women express love mentally and emotionally because that’s what we each need. Men live in their minds with each other. Women live in their bodies with each other and it can be overkill either way.😌 I think that’s part of why humans tend to be heterosexual (male and female living together). I know I couldn’t handle living with a woman, sex or no sex. I’m woman enough for myself.

Do women hear men’s silent body language to us or do we assume it’s shallow objectification? Do men hear a woman’s feelings in her tone of voice and writing or do they just hear static blather? Sometimes neither one of us is listening but judging by our own bias instead.
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Essay: How Do We Move From Lust to Love?


Do you know the difference between lust and love? Lust is your eyes, ego, and genitals activated first and leading. Love is your heart and mind activated and leading first.

I’ll go with the hard one first; Love.

Love is when you want to take time to really know someone, to care about how they feel, what they need, and what makes them tick. You want to be their friend. The problem here is that friendship usually turns guys off because they want to get kinky and nasty with their fantasy brains too much too quick. Sometimes, women do, too. That can get mean, which I don’t feel is part of friendship.

Friendship is the basis of all lasting, lusty, good relationships. It takes time and maturity to grow. Lust is everything else. Anything that’s not love is lust. Lust is the emotion behind most human interactions and has the face of greed, trolling on social media, offloading on strangers and the like. If you have no foundation of care and face-to-face friendship with someone, you are indulging in instant gratification lust, and there is nothing loving about it.

This issue has been challenging for me. I’m a very passionate, physical woman and have no problem lusting after men who are very attractive to me. I don’t act on it; it’s just fun. My personality and values are all about love. There isn’t really any other material thing I lust after unless I’m really hungry. then I lust after food.

Food hunger is almost exactly like sex hunger in the brain. And notice how many people overeat when they just need some love, affection, and sex. We’re looking for a serotonin spike and some other juicy brain chemicals that make us happy. I know I am.

Food doesn’t come close to making me happy as intimacy and love do. I don’t even like bothering to stop and fix food because I’m busy with my projects, writing, chores, and things I love to do! Why do I have to stop and eat? I’ve always been like that. I’m not terribly fond of slowing down.
Now we see a problem here; denial of human need when you know it’s not likely to be easily fulfilled!

I’ve been married three times to great men and had several great boyfriends. I’m still not satisfied. They weren’t perfect or didn’t satisfy me the way I really wanted to be. They didn’t make my brain and body explode with happiness. Love is the sexiest thing going.

It makes me wonder about eating disorders. If you take that denial of the need for love, warmth, and affection far enough, it would make your brain, or specifically, the hypothalamus gland stop craving food. So the emotion of lust would be good at this point versus the emotions around deprivation.

I’m not into deprivation at all but I am sorely afraid of loving a man, pulling him to me, and pushing him away because I need to be alone with my ideas, my mind, my life, my work, and my writing. I don’t want to hurt him. There has to be some intimacy and some time shared with your loved one, or they will go away. I hate that.

I think I’ve stayed alone in my brain because I’ve lost too many people I’ve loved. It’s like a car idling. My life isn’t idling, but my feelings about bonding in a relationship are definitely idling. Maybe I’m stuck because it’s emotionally safer. Therefore, I’m celibate. I’m not using men anymore, or they me and calling it love.

There is no risk of having your heart ripped out and stomped on the floor by death and life itself if you don’t go into love gear and really start driving. It’s actually peaceful.

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Essay: How Do We Move From Lust to Love?

Heart shape split in half with blue cosmic light on left and orange fire flames on right

Do you know the difference between lust and love? Lust is your eyes, ego, and genitals activated first and leading. Love is your heart and mind activated and leading first.

I’ll go with the hard one first; Love.

Love is when you want to take time to really know someone, to care about how they feel, what they need, and what makes them tick. You want to be their friend. The problem here is that friendship usually turns guys off because they want to get kinky and nasty with their fantasy brains too much too quick. Sometimes, women do, too. That can get mean, which I don’t feel is part of friendship.

Friendship is the basis of all lasting, lusty, good relationships. It takes time and maturity to grow. Lust is everything else. Anything that’s not love is lust. Lust is the emotion behind most human interactions and has the face of greed, trolling on social media, offloading on strangers and the like. If you have no foundation of care and face-to-face friendship with someone, you are indulging in instant gratification lust, and there is nothing loving about it.

This issue has been challenging for me. I’m a very passionate, physical woman and have no problem lusting after men who are very attractive to me. I don’t act on it; it’s just fun. My personality and values are all about love. There isn’t really any other material thing I lust after unless I’m really hungry. then I lust after food.

Food hunger is almost exactly like sex hunger in the brain. And notice how many people overeat when they just need some love, affection, and sex. We’re looking for a serotonin spike and some other juicy brain chemicals that make us happy. I know I am.

Food doesn’t come close to making me happy as intimacy and love do. I don’t even like bothering to stop and fix food because I’m busy with my projects, writing, chores, and things I love to do! Why do I have to stop and eat? I’ve always been like that. I’m not terribly fond of slowing down.
Now we see a problem here; denial of human need when you know it’s not likely to be easily fulfilled!

I’ve been married three times to great men and had several great boyfriends. I’m still not satisfied. They weren’t perfect or didn’t satisfy me the way I really wanted to be. They didn’t make my brain and body explode with happiness. Love is the sexiest thing going.

It makes me wonder about eating disorders. If you take that denial of the need for love, warmth, and affection far enough, it would make your brain, or specifically, the hypothalamus gland stop craving food. So the emotion of lust would be good at this point versus the emotions around deprivation.

I’m not into deprivation at all but I am sorely afraid of loving a man, pulling him to me, and pushing him away because I need to be alone with my ideas, my mind, my life, my work, and my writing. I don’t want to hurt him. There has to be some intimacy and some time shared with your loved one, or they will go away. I hate that.

I think I’ve stayed alone in my brain because I’ve lost too many people I’ve loved. It’s like a car idling. My life isn’t idling, but my feelings about bonding in a relationship are definitely idling. Maybe I’m stuck because it’s emotionally safer. Therefore, I’m celibate. I’m not using men anymore, or they me and calling it love.

There is no risk of having your heart ripped out and stomped on the floor by death and life itself if you don’t go into love gear and really start driving. It’s actually peaceful.

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Prose; Adoration Be Damned


pink roses

©️Lisa K. Townsend

Today is June 3, 2026 and I live alone with patients in and out working on my computer chip project, and feel more this way than ever.

I’m stalking a case for spring in the autumn of my middle age.

My assembled energy is diametrically opposite that of needing the validation of an amassed group of imposters pretending to agree so they can drink together later.

It’s not that I don’t like the group, or that I don’t occasionally have a very dry martini, I just don’t viscerally need the group. They get exhumed energy from each other; even demand it threatening social castigation, as though there would be any real loss there.

I haven’t figured out how to affix myself to a rumbling male in my present condition.

In addition, my mephitic eighteen-year-old son will be moving out of the house soon to go on his way to sow his oats and beans. My peaceful environment is proliferating.

As I think back on the men/mates I’ve adored and who have adored me, as vain as that sounds, it was called love at the time and then it turned into territorial civil war and possessive jealousy.

I’m pretty sure that uncorked behavior is common and some couples like it that way but some don’t. I don’t.

It’s just that, in this new paradigm of sitting in my body and owning myself, that adoration doesn’t feel like it’s all it’s cracked up to be.

A man feels as though I’ve forged an alliance with a fawning cat whose nursing by pushing its paws into my chest.

Maybe it’s just the mood I’m in.

When a man starts to adore me he wants to own me, my time, and my body, like a puppy!

That’s been my experience with every man I’ve been with except this last guy I dated. At least he didn’t bug me. I know there are all the ideas about giving your mate the space they need, but then the real emotions of amorous desire creep in.

“I want you”, “I adore you”, “I need you”, “I love you”, “I miss you” becomes a medieval prison!

I used to think I wanted to be adored by a man with high self-esteem and all the pheromones I need to be turned on, but now I’m not so sure.

I love my life, my work, my friends, and my home. Maybe all of that adoration would be oppressive! I’d have to respond after all or that would be rude.

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Essay: Follow Intuition, not Feelings

An ornate balance scale holds a glowing orb on one side and a blue ribbon on the other, set outdoors with mountains and a river at sunset.

I hear people say, “Intuition can be wrong.”

No, it’s not. Intuition is objective. Feelings are subjective. Objective means you have a detached mindset. Subjective means you are the subject of the issue, and your feelings are involved. You can’t analyze the issue objectively unless you make THE ISSUE the object of your focus.

  • Intuition is flashes of memory from the past or the future that show you synchronicity to wake you up to your destiny. There is no gender ascribed to intuition. Both women and men are intuitive. It makes you strong, not weak.
  • Feelings are just sign posts pointing you to a truth for now. But feelings flow like water and are not to be followed. They CHANGE and are subjective. My pet peeve is watching humans indulge in emotion as though it was rational truth. It’s not. It’s how you feel right now. It will make you ill if you don’t let it go, positive or negative. It’s not healthy to laugh all the time any more than it is to cry all the time. Get help and level it out. Or just exercise. The brain needs exertion. Meditate some. Center in your body and accept it as it is, female and male, both all the time.
  • Following your heart is not just feelings. The heart is the point of love, but love is not a feeling. It’s a frequency that is connected to Source as eternal grace, bond, affinity, synchronicity, and joy. Men and women need to follow their heart and DO love, not just feel lust, and call it love. We need both. Lust wanes. Love never ends.
  • It’s more accurate to say “I just know it,” than “I just feel it,” when communicating intuition. It sounds more confident and powerful, which can piss people off. But those of us who have prophetic dreams and are lightworkers need to claim our power now. My patients have said for 24 years that I’m magic or an angel and a real healer. I rebuffed them until 2020, when I felt Voldemort coming after humanity.

Keep in mind that it is still taboo for women to claim to know anything. Think about it. Claim it anyway. It’s still taboo for men to claim to feel anything. Claim it anyway. No one needs to cut their body and pretend to be the opposite gender to balance it, but there are always lessons with the body.

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Essay: Transactional vs. Personal in relationships

Pathway with zodiac symbols leading to glowing portal under planets and stars

6/25/26

I just thought of a new one. Fake personal that is really transactional. People who know they need to be more personal and authentic but have no skill in it bc their whole lives have been transactional.

The “Time is Money” materialist value system thinking has taken over American relationships of every kind. Relationships that should be personal become useage transactional and relationships that should be business transactional become usage personal to scam sex, money, or babies. Criminals layer the two. The root cause is a dysfunctional past with parents that you haven’t processed.

How we use money is at issue here. How do you personally use money? I use it to live, to pay bills, and to have enough healthy food to eat. I have no extra and would only need a bit more for a nest egg. I don’t want a pile of money because the government takes too much and throws it down an illegal rat hole. I’m not doing it. I work hard and really well for the little I have.

I never use money over others as personal power in an intimate, friendship, or family relationship. The love of money is the root of all evil, but not money itself which webhave to have to live. Just don’t LOVE it.

I think it’s wrong and I don’t do things that I know are wrong unlike banks, and rich people who love money as power. Not all rich people do though. Same with lawsuits. You should resolve differences in personal relationships out of court where there is no money. Those types of relationships should never be turned into JUST A TRANSACTION.

My small business is transactional. Professional services should always be just impersonal transactions. Yet in America, business people fake care about you or talk to you like you are family. They get personal but it’s superficial. You don’t know me and I don’t know you. Don’t pretend like you do.

The confusion in healthcare, and not just for me, is we care about our patients. All of us. White coat and holistic. But we are PAID to care. It is our job. It is possible to make caring a transactional job when it comes easily to a person to give as a service. The client or patient who misunderstands that are takers who don’t take care of themselves. I’m sorry, but my care for a patient is never a date or personal. Nor do I ever give that vibe on my deeptissuetherapygr.com site or otherwise. I think it’s confusing for people who have never had anyone love them. That is rampant in our society and tragic.

I think bartenders get the therapist carer thing too but they are just transactional also. Humans lack boundaries in our country.

Whenever there is money involved between two people, be clear on whether it’s personal or transactional and don’t use it as though time is money. It absolutely IS NOT money, nor is time a currency. TIME IS LIFE, EVOLUTION AND DNA and that is very…personal.

The Tao says, “Know the personal but keep to the impersonal”. Boundaries and privacy are important.

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Essay: An Addict’s Ability to Project is Prolific


My experience and intuition tell me that this happens when a person isn’t in control of their own body, habits, and life. It’s ultimately a health issue and usually tied to addiction.

I grant that at the root of addictive behavior are deep emotional wounds, likely from childhood and unconscious or subconscious mind, and that we each want to feel better physically and emotionally and be freer. But at whose expense? It should be at your own expense. The rest of us should not be at the receiving end of your unwillingness to get some help. No one expects deep addiction issues to be handled alone. But the least we ask is that you not offload onto we civilians who are not professionals and seek professional help. I’m guessing there isn’t one person on the planet who doesn’t intimately know an active addict and it breaks everyone’s hearts; mostly your children.

It doesn’t matter how much you love someone or if they are your soul mate or your twin flame; the committed addict ruins everything. They have to use a drug to nullify their feelings and make every excuse in the book to use it and even break the law to justify it. Gee, what would that be? Civil disobedience to unjust laws that protect the public from irrational behavior while you’re on the substance or god forbid, you’re driving while on something?

You have to move on. There is no choice here or you will go down with their ship. It’s not worth it.

Alcoholism and other addictions are epidemics in our society and I’m so sick of dealing with it everywhere I turn. The weirdest part is when there is memory loss regarding communication. Even when you have proof of what they said in an email or text and they deny it. It’s unbelievable that someone can still attempt to pin a behavior on you when you have proof that they are the ones behaving that way. Goodbye. No trust.

I guess the definition of an addict is someone who is completely out of touch with their feelings and haven’t a clue what the truth is for them. So they go haphazardly through life, screwing up all of their relationships with friends, co-workers, employees, mates, and children. You would think that would be incentive enough to get some help but I’m guessing they’d just as soon stay in denial and lazy about getting a grip and fixing it. They have no inner courage.

Those deep wounds aren’t anyone else’s’ problem but theirs no matter how hard they try to tell you there is something wrong with you. That is the projection and there is no end to it. There is such a thing as an innocent party who is just learning that you are abusing a substance to the point of behavior change. Once we learn that they are not cogent, then it’s our responsibility to walk away and let the chips fall where they will. Otherwise, you’ll get into co-dependency instead of interdependency and that’s not going to help anyone.

Co-dependent is enabler and addict depending on one another to keep the addiction going. Health, money, structure, and life is in chaos for both. It’s a destructive cycle and no one is healthy or happy. All of your relationships are screwed up and most people who know you are mad at you.

Interdependent means you both are in charge of your own lives, know how you feel, express it, take care of yourself, have friends who like you and you like them, have your money and things organized, are able to say you’re sorry, and like any normal human being, have needs and want to depend on someone for support once in a while. Let’s hope we can pair up with the people we truly deserve, not the ones we don’t.

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Computer Chip Innovation: Why do physicists ignore syntropy?


Entropy from silicon-binary chips is ubiquitous to A.I.

“Why isn’t syntropy a well-recognised notion within physics? In this sense, it is ignored (or rather, neglected). It is because no-one has come up with a useful theory that involves it as a central notion. Physics has been perfectly content to use entropy and the framework it lives in (thermodynamics, or its microphysical alter-ego: statistical mechanics). Theories of life and its processes (Schrodinger’s hopes aside) have not found syntropy a great help.”-Paul Mainwood on Quora

Thank you Paul.

Lisa’s Opinion

I think, it is because the action of syntropy is female, it chills out, it relaxes, it is receptive and fertile energy. Entropy is male energy. Women and men have both kinds of energy but tend to be dominant in one or the other. We are SO that way. Women want sex more than men in my opinion. Not just f…… SEX, emotional, physical passion, bonding,  knowing: relationship. But not all women. They’ve given up and been dumbed down by the sex demands of relationship lonely men who don’t get it.

No one has come up with a useful theory that involves human women of flesh as a central notion in society, to give another meaning to what Paul said. We exist in an objectified sex box with no ideas, brain, or mind. And if we DO have that, we’re too intimidating and will be replaced by plastic sex robots for beta men. There are videos on it now. New insulting industry. Or is it revenge for women using dildos? What’s good for the gander is good for the goose? Sex wars.

We have the rising industry of female sex robots who are ever so entropically useful to men whose hearts are closed and have given up on relationship. They are misogynist and many women are misandrist. Don’t tell me the sex wars don’t underpin the focus in science.

The male physicists don’t want to see the forest through the trees unless they can dominate it and make it their territory. Jungle level in the trees but not of them: carbon.

Victorian romance might be dead.

https://www.quora.com/Why-does-physics-ignore-syntropy

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Essay; The “No Relationship Agreement”, Like a Pre-Nup only it’s a Pre-Sex Agreement


presexual agreement

I wrote this 5 years ago. Today is May 6, 2026 and it’s still an idea to consider.

This is the antonym of “The Relationship Agreement” first suggested on the show “The Big Bang Theory” by Sheldon Cooper. At this point, it’s just an idea but it would make me feel better if men knew my boundaries before I date them. I’m interested in sex and Love but not being a man’s territory for his status ambitions.

They also can’t power trip and insult me like I’m an emotional, needy girl that falls in love when I have sex with a man. I don’t. That’s younger girls, not older women. Nor do I care what previous women have expected of him.l, loke his patriarchally derived money for instance. I control myself. I have zero time or interest in being a dog-trainer because I’m not a bitch.

It can be widely observed that women are treated like “capital”, territory, objects to be owned or sold like a slave as in sex-trafficking, married for status under the guise of love that usually only lasts for ten years, and possessed by a man like a house or a car. Or, used for sex and thrown to the curb with no feelings whatsoever. That is factual in our society.

I strongly feel this agreement is appropriate for women and men over 50 since it is not ideal that either of them reproduces. The main purpose of marriage is protective reproduction. After 50, there is no point of marriage and most professionals agree.

Most females that don’t pander to patriarchy function socially and biologically under the values of Love and Freedom, that have a spiritual foundation, not ownership because we make humans in our bodies which is sacred. Our sex energy is stronger and more important than the male because everything in our body automatically makes a human being. We hold the species in our hearts. We don’t need to dink around with A.I. or technology or cross-dressing to fantasize about being a woman; we live it. It’s true that the egg and the sperm are equal in needing to conceive but the fact that the woman alone does the rest means that the sexual energy we share with a man is a BIG PROFIT to him. It gives him some of eternity whether he realizes it or not.

They take our sex energy and more and don’t give much back because maybe they don’t have as much to give as women do. They try to use money to substitute.

Males and thus patriarchy are cashing in on women who don’t realize what big sexual energy we have that rivals males and men don’t understand why we give it away. Like Bruno Mars sings, “Your sex takes me to Paradise.” If he’s not having sex, he feels like he’s been locked out of heaven! That song says it all as do many other songs with men expressing their deep feelings about how dependent they are on our bodies for happiness. Swimming in our bodies is apparently something spiritual. Women just shake their heads because to us it’s just normal and men get dramatic about it!

Most women love giving their sex energy but not to the point of bankruptcy. It’s getting to the bankrupt point on this planet and it’s up to women to stop the hemorrhage.

If you think about a woman’s body like a bank account, women are letting men rob the bank.

Prostitution starts to make men pay for a loan but only scratches the surface. Men need to start to pay their own way on the Earth in the form of Love so this agreement is my idea to start in that direction. I don’t know if it’s possible. Maybe it’s like trying to get blood from a turnip.

Please note that I’m not suggesting a “No Love”, “No intimacy” agreement. In fact, women are the opposite. The “No-relationship” agreement is a first step to legally and socially protect a woman from becoming the territory of a man and her energy being owned only by herself, thus guarding her sexual energy for future generations of humans and possibly saving the species.

Women are being abused, used, trafficked, raped and denigrated everywhere on the planet and it’s gotta stop. Male, patriarchal institutions are trying to kill the species. That’s the opposite of everything women are about.

The No-Relationship Agreement

This must be initialed by both parties (herein called the fucker and the fuckee whose roles can swap) before having sex. Sex is never an obligatory act once enacted. We are still both totally free. Human beings don’t possess one another; we bond through love. ___________

  1. You agree not to ask me to be your girl/boyfriend._________
  2. You agree not to ask me to marry you._________
  3. You agree that if we discuss it at length, after some time, and agree, we can be monogamous lovers but still not be in a formal relationship that suggests territory. Once initialed, we agree that neither of us will bring another sexual partner into our home if we live together and agree to be monogamous lovers. ________
  4. If one changes their mind and doesn’t want to be monogamous lovers there is no obligation or punishment forthwith. We are both free agents and will go our own way.__________
  5. Under no circumstances does one ever tell the other one what to do. We can ask but never command.____________
  6. We both have and control our own money.__________
  7. Either of us can ask for a 3-way but never expect it.__________
  8. We both agree that digital sex is only occasional or just goofing around. Neither one of us engages in it with anyone as a predominant mode of sex. We agree that sex without a body is unhealthy and dumb.__________
  9. If we want to go out together just ask the other one. There is no obligation and we can ask someone else to go with us, female or male._________
  10. Public designation without #3 is “friends”.____________
  11. Public designation with #3 is “partner”._____________
  12. If one falls in love with the other because they’ve lost their mind, the other one has permission to bolt. We agree not to call the police or missing person.__________

It’s an idea. When a man I date actually initials it I’ll let you know. It would mean his intent is to love and give something back and not use my sexual energy.