My ex husband, my son’s father was like Bill Evans


Dave was high functionjng autistic.

And he smoked himself to lung cancer, Bill with that cigarette hanging out of his mouth. 🎶 People judge smokers but drink alcohol like a fish. So hypocritical. Alcohol is socially acceptable like greed and banking. Dave didn’t drink or do any drugs. He loved to smoke. Cigarette smoking and baseball are for the working class poor people because we dare to have an imagination.

Pick your poison. Artist or brilliant brain people sometimes need a drug to cope with this planet that has a very hard time with people who express themselves brilliantly. Even Dave’s friends called him a freak which I didn’t appreciate.

If you ask anyone who knew him or played with him in Grand Rapids would agree or think he was better because he also played bass and drums.

Sometimes I I miss him. There is no music played in this house anymore. We used to play together often. I just can’t feel it in me now…since 2016.

At least I figured out how physics phase conjugate beams move between harmonics in the Tzolkin and express our destiny in time. That’s what I do now. 🥳 It’s a compromise while those music feelings sit there.

After I finished writing this I realized that today is his analog. He was White 4 Wizard~Red 4 Serpent. He’s probably around right now. Synchronicity.

Red Serpent – Life Force, Instinct, Vitality – Dreamspell Calendar: Esot…


Deep embodiment is Red Serpent. Sensation is a source of wisdom. But instinct should not overun awareness.

YOUR BODY BELONGS TO YOU TO CHANNEL YOUR AWARENESS OF THE HOLOGRAPHIC FIELD OF CREATION AND FREEWILL IN WHICH WE LIVE. Don’t hand it over to anyone, ever, for any reason.-Lisa T.

That begs the question, “Then why did Christ do it?” “Why did he let the Romans take him?” Because as our Creator, he felt responsible for the error of choices that were made by the universe in allowing Lucifer to lead and rule on Tiamat and the tremendous error caused by he and Satan. Jesus felt he needed to be able to relate to the outcome of that error as we have to on earth in the body and so he did. Christ is FOREVER relational to all creation, not transactional.

That is the archetype of rhe Serpent in the Bible, the Reptilians on Tiamat. They are the original serpent and the karma is being played out on earth right now.

Today we enter HF57: a resonant store of energy in order to remember the elegance of attunement as we move to Yellow 7 Star by Saturday. We are still in the 8th weatherfront of planetary stabilization

The IChing Hx is 42: Increase. The nucleotide is CTA Leucine 100011

42: Increase

Substantial progress and increasing prosperity are exhilarating and good—as long as you go with the flow and keep the interests of others in mind. Like a river’s white-water rapids, periods of increase can be of short duration. It furthers one to ride the rapids now while the waves of opportunity are high.

Leadership in times of increasing opportunity involves commitment to the needs of cohorts or dependents. By remembering that to lead is to serve, a leader strengthens his or her ability to bring about a lasting increase in prosperity. In a time of general increase, those who contribute most directly to the common good will achieve the greatest and most long-lasting rewards.

When opportunities for increase arise, very good fortune comes to those who act swiftly and boldly without falling into the trap of letting their actions be merely self-serving. If you aspire to a position of prominence, the most enduring strategy is to work to raise the tide of your entire community, company, or relationship, rather than setting out to swim upstream on your own.

When the times favor prosperity, and when leadership is in the hands of the broadminded, supreme good fortune is the result.

The 5GForce Mantra for Mindset

I perfect in order to create. Producing mind I seal the output of vision with the planetary tone of manifestation. I am guided by the power of abundance. I am a polar kin. I extend the blue galactic spectrum.

Kin 75: Blue 10 Planetary Eagle

PCU 13.26

The 5th chakra is the throat where we express ourselves, not just talking but in any way.

The 4D Mantra for Mindset

This is the protein Serine

Solar System Sync 3D

THE SUN IS NOW IN ♌️ LEO, it’s home spot. Leo is the only sign ruled by a star and not a planet.

This is 4 Maldek karma 2x, 4 Neptune, 4 Jupiter, and 10 Saturn.

The evolving proteins are 4 Serine, 4 Lysine, 4 Cysteine, 4 Arginine, and 10 Histidine

  • The Sun enters Leo today, where it will transit until August 22nd. The Sun is dominant, confident, outgoing, and playful in its own sign–we want to enjoy and express ourselves during this cycle. (In sync with PCU in the throat chakra) The Leo Sun is intensely individual, not content to be merely one of the team. This cycle is a time to shine, perform, and add a touch of color and drama to our lives. We are generous and grand in our gestures and attitudes. On the shadow side, we can also be self-centered and vain under this influence.
  • With today’s Uranus-Juno trine, we’re encouraged through our contacts and interactions with others, and we’re ready to cooperate while giving one another the respect and space they need. We’re open to new ways of making things work. We may be leveraging our ability to lead and inspire now. This can be a time of dynamic, positive group activities.
  • However, as the day advances, we approach a Venus-Saturn quincunx that can make it difficult to see our responsibilities to others clearly, leading to either under- or overestimation. It’s not an ideal time to make decisions about value, money, or relationship matters. (This is our Hidden Wisdom, Yellow 10 Warrior mediated by Saturn. SYNC)
  • The Moon is void from 5:49 PM EDT, with the Moon’s last aspect before changing signs (a trine to Mercury), until the Moon enters Sagittarius the next day, Thursday, July 23rd, at 9:08 PM EDT.

From cafeastrology.com 🌒 🌟 🪐

We have another major 90 gamma hz blast in amplitudes

Good and Evil in the Harmonic, the YiChing, in Us, and in the World


I was driving home from the store this morning which only takes 10 minutes of my day. So the chances were very low that I would choose to have the radio on a local channel and hear my son’s father, Dave, White 4 Wizard, now deceased, playing in his great jazz group CHV, Cooper, Hay VanLente. They have a CD.

So, I hear the Rhodes piano he played, which is classic, that Dave owned and loved. He played his ass off on it. I could tell by how monstrous the player was that it was Dave and could hardly believe what I was hearing on the radio. Alex and I still talk about him a lot and laugh at his Star Wars and different Presidents impressions. Alex has the same “impressions” talent that comes with having good ears. They can hear nuance. I used to make fun of preachers when I was a little kid and crack my Dad up too and was good at doing accents in theater.

So, the guy on the radio says, “This is Traditions, how we got to where we are now” which is the name of the jazz show. I got to the bottom of 4th and Covell St. and knew this was Dave giving a lesson in time. I got home and told Alex. He knew the song. Dave ripped it up with his jazz buddies. Then Alex and I got into a huge philosophical discussion about good and evil and how we can’t really escape it on earth or in ourselves. I told him more details about what his grandmother did to his Dad. He knew some of it. But that his Dad just couldn’t get over the pain, didn’t let it go, and it killed him. That’s cancer.

As my readers know, Red 11 Serpent kin have loomed large in my destiny and Dave’s mom was Red 11 Serpent (and Grandpa was Blue 3 Eagle! her 5GForce!) More synchronicity. She was 75% evil to her son. Sometimes parents are. Many times they are. I tried my best to love and support Dave but as we all know, we can’t heal our mates. They have to figure it out. Dave never did and died of cancer. The soul wrenching and being absolutely hauled off on out of jealousy by players in the area and his brothers, caused him great pain also. He was also a legacy as a friend, a great player and teacher and my husband. But alas, this is the crucifixion planet for people who excel or, are autistic, or very different. Dave would bring home fistfuls of cash and I’d put it in the bank. That was normal for us and how we bought our home I still work in. There are no fistfuls of cash anymore, probably for none of us bc of the powers that be.

I realized, looking back at my parents that I was the well-behaved beautiful one in my family and was also hauled off on by Mom and my sisters so they could have leeway to behave badly and still do. It gave me a guilt complex, that I had to be perfect to make up for their evil shit. Again, the suffering servant. Dave was the suffering servant too. So was Christ. Well, I don’t want to be and I think we have a choice.

So I thought, “Is it possible the harmonic is both evil and good?” We know about karma and dharma. I’ve actually always felt the harmonic was non-judgmental, factual, evolutionary facts based on pattern and math. I’ve never ascribed religious terms to the Maya because they weren’t religious. But what about the human sacrifice, the Draco-Reptilian, the current child sex trafficking and torture and the C%^&&? It’s evil. No two ways about it. Anyone who has the courage to see our world sees that there is entrenched evil ruling all nations of the world that is based in secret societies and is ancient. But right in the center of the Harmonic in HF33 is White 13 Dog, the Holy Spirit.

That Central Axis of the Eternal Present isn’t good or evil, it’s POWER and with it, the power to do what’s right and just, or do do what’s wrong and unfair. David Wilcock and Corey Goode have taught that the C&*() know the power of agelessness and it’s evil. That’s BS. There are also humans that know the power of agelessness and personal power and are GOOD. But somehow, that’s taboo. People assume that if humans know their power, they’ll likely pick evil. WHY THAT ASSUMPTION? I disagree.

What is that about? The Central Axis of the brain and spinal cord are REAL. I meditate everyday and use it to do my work, look and feel younger and have every intention of staying here as long as I’m needed or want to be. I’ve always thought and said, “I’m doing good because I want to. It’s the right thing” And I feel good about myself. But there are pieces I see now, the resentment of laziness and wrong doing without trying harder, people not being willing to fix what they’ve done wrong and make the world a worse place, and much of what I express on here, basically imperfection and stupidity is intolerance.

Harry (Yellow 10 Seed) used to say to me that it’s not good that I’m intolerant and impatient with stupidity and he was right. He is patient with it. I’m not. Maybe it’s because I’ve felt like I can and should clean up the mess and try to ease some pain on this planet. But…I don’t have to. I can let it fall apart. I don’t have to do this blog that barely anyone reads or work in my office. Why do I?

I thought it was because I cared but maybe I don’t. I don’t feel like dancing with evil anymore or putting up with it, or do we all have to? Is it part of TIME?

Probably.

This is the song I heard.
Dave on the right, Coop in the center on with mallets and Mike the drummer on the end. The piano part is Dave.

Bill Evans and Eddie Gomez on the album “Intuition”